I am so fucking pissed.  I dont think I've ever felt so much hate run through my veins before.

Christina from last years theatre jumped Amanda today.  Said that she's been talking shit about some bitch named Brittany, who Amanda dosnt even know.  I didnt find out about it until mom picked me up from rehearsals around 4:00.  I would give anything ( Read more... )

Well, yet another day in my overly dramatic life.

Yesterday was Ervins birthday party.  It was held at the club house at Pueblo Del Sol.  The only people that I knew there were Ervin, James, Seth, Marshall, Andy, Jeff and Sunny.  (and I guess you could count Tony, too.  ?)  Most of the people there were these gangsta assholes who didnt seem to ( Read more... )

DIE!!  EVERYONE MUST DIE!!!  ROT IN HELL, BITCHES!!!  I HOPE YOU ALL FALL INTO A DITCH AND BREAK ALL OF YOUR BONES, BLEEDING YOUR WAY INTO A SLOW, UNBEARABLE DEATH!!!  HAHAHAHA!!!

Ya know, I'm actually not mad at all.............or angry........and I dont want anyone to die......I just felt like writing in big, bold letters ( Read more... )

Guess what?!  I have insomnia....AGAIN!!  This is mother fucking bullshit.  I have no idea what the fuck is causing it and I really wish it would just go away.  I had insomnia for eight months last year... EIGHT FUCKING MONTHS!!  You have no idea how many bottles of pills and Nyquil I've been through.  Surprising I havent killed myself with the ( Read more... )

Have you ever had a song remind you of a friend?  Well, I have many and I'm bored shitless so I thought that I could write about them.

• Good Ridence - Dustin
• Mr. Brightside - Josh
• While My Guitar Gently Weeps - Morgan  (hell, pretty much any Beatles song reminds me of morgan.)
• Everlong - Mikey  (not the whole song, only the part where he says, ' ( Read more... )

Colored easter eggs today.  =)  I only colored three but they are the most beautiful eggs I ever did see!!  Kurt is going to hide them around the house and mom and I are going to find them.  May and Kjell are coming over around one and then we shall barbeque!!  (Hello diet pills.)

Today was Seth's 19th birthday!  I feel really bad about not getting ( Read more... )

I dont feel so good.  Like depression and sickness mixing into a hot ball of shit in the pit of my belly.  I was in a very good mood yesterday and I thought that maybe the same would happen today but I guess not.  =(  Dont you ever wish you could have a little remote that controlled your emotions?  Like changing the channel on a t.v.  I dont know ( Read more... )

You are a RSIT--Reserved Sentimental Intellectual Taker. This makes you a Archetypal Older Child.

You are a hard nut to crack. You have a wicked sense of humor. Despite your reserved nature, you are more comfortable (and successful) in the meeting and courting mode than you are in a long term relationship. You feel misunderstood, and usually you are ( Read more... )

I'VE CHANGED MY FUNERAL SONG TO 'Wake Me Up When September Ends'  !!!  BITCHES!!!!   

I keep having really bad dreams.  I had a dream the other night that Amanda commited suicide and I was talking at her funeral.... I was standing up at the podium, tears streaming down my face as I waved around a bottle of vodka.    Then a couple nights later I had a dream that when my mom and Heather were coming to pick me up from Tonopah they got ( Read more... )