when is it okay to say what i want to say...

[gazingatstars]

i already can't wait for this year to be over. 2005 will not come soon enough. i'm not even at the halfway point of this year yet and i'm ready to start fresh with a new year. things will be more settled, Madison will be older, and everything thats going on with my mom and this whole new marrying of our families will be somewhat resolved. i'm

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she'll be proud to call you her mom.

[mune_ni]

"there are things i have wanted to get off my chest to people who i think just wouldn't know what to tell me considering my situation and the lack of stability in which my situation provides me

Wow...

[nullnvoid]

Those were really amazing things you just said. I wish I heard more things like that being said to Rachel. I wish *I* said more things like that...

Re: Wow...

[gazingatstars]

you know you don't have to...i can call you at midnight and just say...i finally talked about it...and you understand...no questions.
i love you sweetie...dont' worry...i know maddie does too

Re: she'll be proud to call you her mom.

[gazingatstars]

scott...i hope my sister knows how lucky she is to have someone like you in her life who says such nice things about her sister...let alone her. i appreciate it==you're a sweetheart

[prettypunkpixie]

woman, i know exactly how you feel.
you know you can call me whenever.
and this week i want to visit. wednesday or thursday.
i am going baby-free....just let me know.
surprise for madison from ariana.

i was hoping

[gazingatstars]

i figured you might be the only one to fully understand how i felt when i was writing that. weds or thurs works bc i know i'll be home...just call my house--i'm in the book if u don't have the number. i wish you weren't ariana free...i miss her! we'll have to come over (maddie and i) to visit you guys...or have a play date at a park or something. i miss ya and can't wait to see u!

Re: i was hoping

[prettypunkpixie]

well, i WANT to be ariana free. at least the first time i meet that beautiful girl. because otherwise i will be running around with ariana. and she will cry when i am holding another baby. hah. and i just want some time with you two girls where i can actually pay attention to you two....haha. next time i'll bring along my munchkin...i just know she will be a nut because we had our first "mommy holding another baby" experience the other day...hahaha.

and seriously my love, i think about things sometimes, and after i think them i think i must be the most horrible mom for even thinking it. but there is absolutely nothing more important than her in my life from now on, and it will always be that way. sometimes it's hard because we are still so young and still want to think about what WE want rather than what's better for our children....but then that awesome mommy instinct kicks in again, and we realize how much we love what we're doing.

Re: i was hoping

[gazingatstars]

exactly