FAN SERVICE
Title: Jiyong is Amazing but not Perfect
Pairing: g-ri X the world
Rating: PG-13
Warning: All over the place
Summary: It's not like you need to know, okay?
AN: I'll be extremely happy if anybody gets what I'm trying to say. And happy birthday to me!!!~
Jiyong is Amazing but not Perfect
It's all just fan service.
Jiyong's leaning in too close and he's practically breathing off of Seungri's own supply of oxygen. They're laughing and it sounds musical, like Seunghyun hyung is the bass and Youngbae is the tenor, Daesung is in charge of baritone and Seungri is the maknae and Jiyong is the leader. They're a choir and they blend- they mix so fucking well like this that nobody questions Jiyong when he's molesting Seungri. It's fan service, the others know, the fans know, Seungri knows. It's fan service and Jiyong grew up in an environment where fan service is essential for the fans to squeal and giggle. Jiyong is obsessed with his fans, so he gives them everything he can, everything they want. If that includes violating Seungri's personal space, Jiyong is willing to do so.
"Maknae is mine."
Everybody knows that. If you work inside the YG building, you know that. Seungri was young when he went to Seoul all by himself with nothing but his big dreams and determined heart. Jiyong is brilliant and he is amazing, not perfect- no. Jiyong isn't perfect but he's wonderful and Seungri can do nothing but follow the older. Seungri sees Jiyong as the person he wants to be, and Seungri thinks if this is the only way to the top, then he'll work his way up and reach Jiyong. He'll smile when Jiyong is all over him, and he'll laugh when Jiyong takes a hold of his hand and squeezes it too tight, like he doesn't want to let go, like Jiyong's trying to say something but Seungri's too dense to understand.
I'm so sorry but I think I might love you.
Love is such a strong word so maybe it's wrong to use it. Let's say, extreme like. Or- or! Let's say, adoration! Bigbang is Bigbang and they focus on their music above everything else. But of course, fan service is still essential. However, it's hard to do fan service when it isn't "service for the fans" anymore. Sometimes, Jiyong wonders if this fucking thing he feels in his chest when Seungri is speaking, or when Seungri is smiling, or when Seungri is standing just right there- he wonders if it's real. Jiyong wonders if what the fuck is wrong with him and why is he so fucking concerned with everything that Seungri does or Seungri says. And why the hell can't he shut up when it comes to Seungri? He wishes someone can explain it to him.
V.I likes this.
Seungri feels that Jiyong is still that star that he wants to reach, like yeah, they've been in the same group for 3 years and yet, after all those years, Jiyong is still so far away. Sometimes, Seungri would look at Jiyong and the way the light shines as his body moves with the music and the way his lips sing lyrics he penned himself and Seungri wonders- can't help but wonder- what if Seungri isn't Seungri but is just Lee Seunghyun. Would Jiyong look at him with sparkling eyes, and that stupid grin on his face? Would Jiyong notice every word Seungri says? Would Jiyong care what Seungri does, Seungri thinks, Seungri Seungri Seungri? Would Jiyong notice him? Seungri looks at the world as it cheers for G-dragon and Seungri's afraid the answer is- no.
Oh God, oh God, no.
It's not that Jiyong is in love with the kid, nor that he can't breathe when it comes to Seungri, nor that he feels like a million butterflies are residing in his stomach when he sees Seungri. No, it's nothing like that. It's just that Seungri is Seungri and Jiyong is pretty obsessed with the way Seungri's eyes would light up when his name is mentioned, or with the way Seungri's smile would spread on his face when he's recognized. Jiyong thinks, that- okay, this is a secret, -shhhhh... Jiyong is afraid that what if he isn't G-Dragon but is just Kwon Jiyong? What if he isn't amazing? And no lights are focused on him? And what if he can't write songs? Nor dance nor rap- what if? Would Seungri still notice him? Would Seungri still look at him? Would Seungri still admire him? And respect him and - love him? Jiyong is afraid he's just G-Dragon and that Kwon Jiyong is nothing but that hyung that Seungri met but never knew.
I'm a strong... baby.
Seungri is afraid. He's strong but he's afraid. He forgets that he's just 18, damn it. Seungri's just 18 and 18 years old aren't supposed to stress over 21 year olds who write songs and dress like the world doesn't exist. Seungri's 18 and he can't say it's love. Love is too specific, he thinks. He's 18 and 18 year old boys are worried about girls and exams and girls and money and girls girls girls. Uh. There aren't any fluttering of hearts, nor drumming of heartbeats, nor sparkling lights but with Jiyong- there are- there are many frustrated wishes and damn hurt dreams. With Jiyong there's this longing, this feeling like Seungri's floating and Jiyong is the only person who can anchor him to reality. With Jiyong, there are many sleepless nights spent on thinking thinking thinking "Get out of my mind, get the fuck off of my heart, I don't need you, I don't need you, hyung- I- I miss you, damn- I- hyung."
Tom is Jerry's.
Of course it was all just play, he'll push and then the other will pull. The next day they won't be talking to each other cause well, yeah. Jiyong's friends are multicolored, uniformed and high ranking. Seungri's friends are- is, himself. They move in different circles, Jiyong in wavy lines and Seungri in straight dotted out parallels. Jiyong is tired of playing the enthusiastic fan service-giver and Seungri is tired of being someone's pet. Jiyong bought Gaho then. Seungri looks at the dog and is happy, at least Jiyong won't be needing him much now. Jiyong isn't aware that Seungri practically owns him. Sure, Seungri admires G-Dragon a lot, practically worships him, and sure, Jiyong adores Seungri, practically smothers him, but but but! What about Kwon Jiyong to Lee Seunghyun? Lee Seunghyun to Kwon Jiyong?
It never was fan service, really.
Jiyong's leaning in too close and he's practically breathing off of Seungri's own supply of oxygen. Jiyong's heart is beating too fast, too fast and he can't breathe. Jiyong remembers last night, when Seungri knocked on his door, slipped on the bed and they slept with their arms around each other. Jiyong remembers all of these and braves a little step closer closer closer but Seungri's laughing, moving away, then they move, like a perfect choir with perfect harmony. Seunghyun hyung moves, winds an arm around Seungri's shoulder and Youngbae glides, smiles and laughs and Daesung sparkles and Jiyong does his part, he smirks, then laugh too (maybe he's the soprano). It's like, like this. There's nothing going on between them. Seungri is Seungri and Jiyong is Jiyong. But hey, what the fuck do you care if Jiyong loves Lee Seunghyun, yeah?
It's just that the world doesn't need to know.
They don't owe anyone an explanation.
AN: Heyo~ I miss the community! Glad to see so much new writers! I'm excited to read all the new fics! I've been pretty busy with school plus I've been sick! But it's my birthday today so I can't miss this! So I wrote a fic for myself. To satisfy myself. Haha. I hope someone, just someone, anybody, understands the fic~ harhar.
AN2: The new layout is kickass gorgeous.
AN3: So much G-Ri in Strong Heart. I call it, "The show where G-Dragon can't shut up about Seungri, like duh- show."
Pairing: g-ri X the world
Rating: PG-13
Warning: All over the place
Summary: It's not like you need to know, okay?
AN: I'll be extremely happy if anybody gets what I'm trying to say. And happy birthday to me!!!~
Jiyong is Amazing but not Perfect
It's all just fan service.
Jiyong's leaning in too close and he's practically breathing off of Seungri's own supply of oxygen. They're laughing and it sounds musical, like Seunghyun hyung is the bass and Youngbae is the tenor, Daesung is in charge of baritone and Seungri is the maknae and Jiyong is the leader. They're a choir and they blend- they mix so fucking well like this that nobody questions Jiyong when he's molesting Seungri. It's fan service, the others know, the fans know, Seungri knows. It's fan service and Jiyong grew up in an environment where fan service is essential for the fans to squeal and giggle. Jiyong is obsessed with his fans, so he gives them everything he can, everything they want. If that includes violating Seungri's personal space, Jiyong is willing to do so.
"Maknae is mine."
Everybody knows that. If you work inside the YG building, you know that. Seungri was young when he went to Seoul all by himself with nothing but his big dreams and determined heart. Jiyong is brilliant and he is amazing, not perfect- no. Jiyong isn't perfect but he's wonderful and Seungri can do nothing but follow the older. Seungri sees Jiyong as the person he wants to be, and Seungri thinks if this is the only way to the top, then he'll work his way up and reach Jiyong. He'll smile when Jiyong is all over him, and he'll laugh when Jiyong takes a hold of his hand and squeezes it too tight, like he doesn't want to let go, like Jiyong's trying to say something but Seungri's too dense to understand.
I'm so sorry but I think I might love you.
Love is such a strong word so maybe it's wrong to use it. Let's say, extreme like. Or- or! Let's say, adoration! Bigbang is Bigbang and they focus on their music above everything else. But of course, fan service is still essential. However, it's hard to do fan service when it isn't "service for the fans" anymore. Sometimes, Jiyong wonders if this fucking thing he feels in his chest when Seungri is speaking, or when Seungri is smiling, or when Seungri is standing just right there- he wonders if it's real. Jiyong wonders if what the fuck is wrong with him and why is he so fucking concerned with everything that Seungri does or Seungri says. And why the hell can't he shut up when it comes to Seungri? He wishes someone can explain it to him.
V.I likes this.
Seungri feels that Jiyong is still that star that he wants to reach, like yeah, they've been in the same group for 3 years and yet, after all those years, Jiyong is still so far away. Sometimes, Seungri would look at Jiyong and the way the light shines as his body moves with the music and the way his lips sing lyrics he penned himself and Seungri wonders- can't help but wonder- what if Seungri isn't Seungri but is just Lee Seunghyun. Would Jiyong look at him with sparkling eyes, and that stupid grin on his face? Would Jiyong notice every word Seungri says? Would Jiyong care what Seungri does, Seungri thinks, Seungri Seungri Seungri? Would Jiyong notice him? Seungri looks at the world as it cheers for G-dragon and Seungri's afraid the answer is- no.
Oh God, oh God, no.
It's not that Jiyong is in love with the kid, nor that he can't breathe when it comes to Seungri, nor that he feels like a million butterflies are residing in his stomach when he sees Seungri. No, it's nothing like that. It's just that Seungri is Seungri and Jiyong is pretty obsessed with the way Seungri's eyes would light up when his name is mentioned, or with the way Seungri's smile would spread on his face when he's recognized. Jiyong thinks, that- okay, this is a secret, -shhhhh... Jiyong is afraid that what if he isn't G-Dragon but is just Kwon Jiyong? What if he isn't amazing? And no lights are focused on him? And what if he can't write songs? Nor dance nor rap- what if? Would Seungri still notice him? Would Seungri still look at him? Would Seungri still admire him? And respect him and - love him? Jiyong is afraid he's just G-Dragon and that Kwon Jiyong is nothing but that hyung that Seungri met but never knew.
I'm a strong... baby.
Seungri is afraid. He's strong but he's afraid. He forgets that he's just 18, damn it. Seungri's just 18 and 18 years old aren't supposed to stress over 21 year olds who write songs and dress like the world doesn't exist. Seungri's 18 and he can't say it's love. Love is too specific, he thinks. He's 18 and 18 year old boys are worried about girls and exams and girls and money and girls girls girls. Uh. There aren't any fluttering of hearts, nor drumming of heartbeats, nor sparkling lights but with Jiyong- there are- there are many frustrated wishes and damn hurt dreams. With Jiyong there's this longing, this feeling like Seungri's floating and Jiyong is the only person who can anchor him to reality. With Jiyong, there are many sleepless nights spent on thinking thinking thinking "Get out of my mind, get the fuck off of my heart, I don't need you, I don't need you, hyung- I- I miss you, damn- I- hyung."
Tom is Jerry's.
Of course it was all just play, he'll push and then the other will pull. The next day they won't be talking to each other cause well, yeah. Jiyong's friends are multicolored, uniformed and high ranking. Seungri's friends are- is, himself. They move in different circles, Jiyong in wavy lines and Seungri in straight dotted out parallels. Jiyong is tired of playing the enthusiastic fan service-giver and Seungri is tired of being someone's pet. Jiyong bought Gaho then. Seungri looks at the dog and is happy, at least Jiyong won't be needing him much now. Jiyong isn't aware that Seungri practically owns him. Sure, Seungri admires G-Dragon a lot, practically worships him, and sure, Jiyong adores Seungri, practically smothers him, but but but! What about Kwon Jiyong to Lee Seunghyun? Lee Seunghyun to Kwon Jiyong?
It never was fan service, really.
Jiyong's leaning in too close and he's practically breathing off of Seungri's own supply of oxygen. Jiyong's heart is beating too fast, too fast and he can't breathe. Jiyong remembers last night, when Seungri knocked on his door, slipped on the bed and they slept with their arms around each other. Jiyong remembers all of these and braves a little step closer closer closer but Seungri's laughing, moving away, then they move, like a perfect choir with perfect harmony. Seunghyun hyung moves, winds an arm around Seungri's shoulder and Youngbae glides, smiles and laughs and Daesung sparkles and Jiyong does his part, he smirks, then laugh too (maybe he's the soprano). It's like, like this. There's nothing going on between them. Seungri is Seungri and Jiyong is Jiyong. But hey, what the fuck do you care if Jiyong loves Lee Seunghyun, yeah?
It's just that the world doesn't need to know.
They don't owe anyone an explanation.
AN: Heyo~ I miss the community! Glad to see so much new writers! I'm excited to read all the new fics! I've been pretty busy with school plus I've been sick! But it's my birthday today so I can't miss this! So I wrote a fic for myself. To satisfy myself. Haha. I hope someone, just someone, anybody, understands the fic~ harhar.
AN2: The new layout is kickass gorgeous.
AN3: So much G-Ri in Strong Heart. I call it, "The show where G-Dragon can't shut up about Seungri, like duh- show."