High School Bingo Part 24
Title: On the Cusp of Becoming Part 24
Author: Gedry
Pairings: Dean/Cas
Rating: pg-13
Word Count: 615
Disclaimer: These characters do not belong to me. I am making no profit from this fanfiction.
Spoilers: none
Warnings: none
Summary: Written for my High School Bingo square entitled Wild Card - Applying for Colleges
Thank you moonofblindness!
On the Cusp of Becoming Part 24
“You need to get started Cas,” Gabriel sighs. “You can’t wait around forever. You know Dean has responsibilities here. He has Sam to think about.”
“I know.” The younger Novak’s growl would normally be enough to drive everyone away, but Gabriel is no high school student and his will is just as strong as his younger sibling’s.
“Look, I get you had this idea that Dean was just going to pick up and follow you to some ivy league school once you picked one out. But it’s not going to happen Cas. Life isn’t like that for real. You have a chance to make something good out of yourself, and you aren’t going to waste it sitting around here working at Target. Now get your shit together and fill out the rest of those applications. You’re already so late you’re not going to get in until the spring semester anyway.” Gabriel is beyond pissed off at the flat façade his brother is giving him. “You can’t just give up because life doesn’t turn out the way you want it to.”
Cas is up and slamming out of the house before he can say something he knows he will regret later. He hates his brother’s logic so much sometimes. Cas knows he wants to go to college and his grades are good enough to get him into any school he wants to attend. He had just planned on getting Dean to come with him in the fall when he packed up and left, and now with Dean being Sam’s guardian he knows it’s not going to happen.
It’s selfish and petty and Cas allows himself a minute to wallow before he heads over to find his boyfriend and try to talk it out.
Dean’s less than concerned about the whole thing. “Just go to school. You need to take care of yourself and it’s all you talked about until that stuff with my dad hit the fan. I’ll be here. I can come see you and you’ll be home on the holidays. We can make it work.”
Cas isn’t exactly prone to episodes of intense emotions. It’s something he prides himself on actually; but watching this person that Cas thinks maybe he loves more than anyone else in the whole world tell him to pack his stuff and move away, while he wipes grease off his fingers and shrugs like it’s no big deal is just too much. He explodes.
“FUCK YOU! I love you. I don’t want to go away and leave you behind. You’re so stupid sometimes Dean! School isn’t more important to me than us! I just want to stay. Give me a fucking reason to stay with you!” Cas is flailing his arms and shouting so loud he knows the neighbors hear him. He doesn’t care. There’s color bursting across his cheeks as his eyes well up and his hands shake.
Dean just blinks before he walks to the other side of the room and pulls a manila envelope out of his bag tossing it to Cas. “Open it,” is all he says in response.
Cas glares but he opens the thing anyway stopping lone enough to wipe his eyes before he reads the words on the page carefully twice. “You’re going to college?”
“Yeah,” Dean answers with a nod of his head. “I start during the summer. I was going to tell you as your graduation present. I thought you would be proud of me.”
“I am.” Cas creeps a step forward but he doesn’t reach out yet.
“Cas, look.” Dean drags a hand down over his face, “if you want to go away to college then go and we will make this thing work. If you don’t want to leave then stay here with me and we’ll go to community college together. You can get your basic courses finished and I can get my mechanics certification, and we can both work and save up so that when Sammy goes off to school you can pick wherever you want to go and I’ll come with you, and I’ll get a job and you can go to school full time. It’s up to you.”
“What do you want?” Cas presses because he needs to hear it.
“I want you to stay with me. My way’s going to take longer but we’ll eventually end up in the same place. I don’t want to lose you,” Dean whispers.
Cas is in his personal space before Dean has a chance to take a breath. “Then I’m staying,” he whispers before he leans in and kisses Dean like he never wants to stop.