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my mom just tried telling me that she and my dad did not and have not pressured me into applying to cornell. i said "bullshit" and walked out.

i'm heated.

my sister's home now and the dynamics of the household since she got kicked out of her art school have changed drastically. all of a sudden i'm a burden to my mom and a total delinquent. my ( Read more... )

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i put up my guard as not to get hurt. i let it down for a moment and i got hurt. it still feels the same, it's still there and it still hurts. it still fucking hurts.

no more agreements, i'm done.

yesterday i went to nyc to have playtime with alice. it was f-u-n. there were funny sketchy italian men in little italy, characters on the metro-- basically everything i go to nyc for.... plus, shopping! i got really cute longchamp flats, woo! but, these were some of the highlights ( Read more... )

i'm not comfortable.
i want to scream.
i want someone to listen.
i want someone to care.
i want
i want
i want
(unconditional) love.

i really wanted to believe your eyes.

first ( Read more... )

i have a lot on my mind that i'm not going to get into.

i'm really glad NEU's 5 years and not 4. it's strange to think that my friends are going to be juniors in college next fall. thanks, middler year. if it weren't for middler year i'd probably be having a nervous breakdown about growing up way too fast right about now ( Read more... )

i'm infuriated at my sister. absolutely infuriated. i mean, i can't help but feel sympathy for her and the situation, but i think of why she's there and it just all goes back to her stupid mistakes ( Read more... )