Time not for the weak

[gelidien]

It has finally occured to me that i cannot change the world, and people shall always be people, i have nothing to live for anymore.As pathetic as that sounds and perhaps emo.I really dont care anymore. Perhaps its a mistake to post this here, but i dont care anymore. Ive done nothing in my life worth taking any note off in the first place

Comments

[dongstyle_ltd]

Hang in there, only a little more time. It's a sad day when we have to subscribe to the belief that value is truly in the eye of the beholders.

[gelidien]

I try...but he just makes me feel so bad about myself it literally seems as though im useless, firstly he reminds me that i didnt visit my grandmother * whom i admit i love very much and is very il;* bad enough...then! he goes on how disappointed he is in me...*that makes things worst* then how im gonna be the death of him and repeats continuesly, until i ask nicely for him to stop saying that...then its " Shut up u just shut up...U dont tell me wat to do i TELL U wat to do"

Am I Just a puppet...i dunno..should i care anymore...

[dongstyle_ltd]

The relationship between a parent and child doesn't change much...you just get to caring less about the little stuff. My mother would be like that all the time, and we will never see eye to eye, but she's letting go more as she gains the impression that I will be able to take care of myself and also understand her viewpoint. Problem: she wants me to subjugate my will wholly to hers even if she claims this not to be the case (semantics) but then this is simply overprotective parents for you.

Why would you be the death of your father if he didn't give a rat's ass about you?

[gelidien]

thats kinda the oddity here with my and my siblings k, errm technically my older brother whom isnt a bad person does have a tendency to party so hes usualy out alot, my father spentbout 2-3 years alone in a house with no one really to talk too and more recently with his neck injury * a pinched nerve at that* the pain is causing searious irritation and driving him literally mad!...he is afraid of the operation as one it would leave a searious scare and 2..chances are he could be very much so paralysed for life...OTHER problems if that were to happen who would support the family as much as id volunteer i doubt a minor art student such as my self can be much help.

[gelidien]

I thank u for your determination, though i have yet to understand to why its the good ones that get hurt the most...* lowers ears*

[gelidien]

ill try mr rottie i shall * eyes like hawk, claws like tiger, bite like a wolf*

[strawcat]

I can't say "don't let it get to you" because that's unrealistic and it probably will anyway.. I know it still gets to me. But what you maybe have more control over is how it influences your decisions. Be strong.. don't let it break you completely, for you are still the person you were yesterday, and perhaps even more because you got through today.

[gelidien]

yeah who knows...i needto work harder...a storms coming