No Limit (3/6)
Title: No Limit
Pairing: Chanyeol/Baekhyun
Genre: Romance, Drama
Word Count: 26,ooo+
Summary: Chanyeol doesn’t miss a day confessing his love to Baekhyun. Baekhyun, on the other hand, doesn’t miss a day rejecting him.
In the end, Baekhyun couldn’t really let Chanyeol sleep outside so he let him in after some time though he refused to talk to him. Chanyeol was depressed throughout the night, even now he’s still thinking about it. Baekhyun had already turned off the lights and was probably sleeping right now. Chanyeol had his own mattress on the floor.
Chanyeol glanced at Baekhyun’s bed. Judging by his position, with his back facing him, Baekhyun really was mad. And that made Chanyeol more depressed.
“Hey, Baekhyun, are you really asleep?” Silence. Chanyeol sighed. “I’ve probably said this a hundred times now but I really am sorry for what happened earlier. I got too excited. I just love you so much that after touching you, everything I’ve been holding in just exploded.” He sighed again. He was too caught up with his sadness that he didn’t realize Baekhyun has turned his body to the edge of his bed and leaned down, kissing him, again.
It was too dark. Chanyeol couldn’t see his face. He can only feel his lips and his hair brushing against his face.
“I know.” Baekhyun said hoarsely after breaking the kiss. “But right now…I can only give you this much. Even I am confused…so until I figure out what to do after this…please settle for a kiss.”
It’s too much. It’s already too much. Baekhyun started leaning back up but Chanyeol immediately sat up and grabbed his shoulders, pulling him into a tight hug. “Chanyeol…?”
“You…you do this every time…” Chanyeol mumbled against Baekhyun’s neck.
“What?”
“I love you so much. I just…love you so much…”
Baekhyun smiled. “Enough already. You’ve been saying that since-“
“I don’t care. I’ll say it as many times I can.”
Silence came after that but it was a comfortable silence. Even until now, what this person was showing him, for Baekhyun it was all too overwhelming. He noticed the dim light from the windows and glances outside. The moon was beautiful. Chanyeol’s feelings…were beautiful. Baekhyun would do anything to make it last.
They didn’t know how long they stayed like that before they finally went to sleep but even so…the night they spent together was the most beautiful night.
Luhan was grinning proudly at everyone in the hallway after hearing of Chanyeol’s progress that night with of course half the credit to “Matchmaker Luhan” who owns a magic dildo.
Though they were more worried about Chanyeol seeing as he had been in a daze all day, daydreaming while blushing like a little girl.
“Was his kiss really that good?” Luhan asked at lunchtime.
Jongdae snorted. “Luhan, there’s no way you would understand the feeling of kissing the one you’ve been chasing for half of your school life.”
“Yeah right back at you. Didn’t you get rejected by Baekhyun? And then you gave up? Are you jealous of Chanyeol now? He got to kiss the guy you were never able to-“
“Shut up!”
“Ah…it was his first kiss.” Sehun said out of the blue.
Chanyeol snapped. “W-W-W-W-W-W-WHAT?! WAIT I FORGOT TO ASK HIM THAT! WHAT IF IT WAS REALLY HIS FIRST KISS!”
“It was.”
“NO WE CAN’T BE SURE! SOMEONE WITH THAT FACE HAS SURELY…” Sehun showed him his phone screen.
OHorat @sehunthegreat @bbhyun Hey Byun, did that happen to be your first kiss?
@bbhyun @sehunthegreat Ah he told you? >///< I didn’t think about that…but yeah it was
Chanyeol immediately snatched Sehun’s phone. He even used a blushing emoticon! Ah my heart!
BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY
“F-F-F-F-F-F-F-F-FIRST KISS!”
“CONGRATULATIONS!!!” Luhan, Jongdae and Sehun yelled in excitement while clapping and dancing all over the place.
“My friend…you have done well in life.” Luhan said while patting Chanyeol’s shoulders proudly. “This calls for a celebration!”
OHorat @sehunthegreat CELEBRATING CHANYEOL TAKING BAEKHYUN’S FIRST KISS TONIGHT WHO WANTS TO COME AND PAY FOR ALL THE EXPENSES! (p.s junmyeon hyung bbuing bbuing)
@lame_berry @sehunthegreat WOW CONGRATS
@thekimjnmyn @sehunthegreat good grief. What would you do without me?
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@pcysuperman @sehunthegreat YOU BRAT! What if Baekhyun sees this?!
Baekhyun sighed before locking his phone. “So that’s why I’m walking home alone today…” He had to admit; it kind of felt empty without Chanyeol constantly talking nonsense around him. But he seemed happy so it’s okay. He walked through his usual route though Baekhyun realized walking without Chanyeol made him feel like he’s taking a long route. It’s just…when Chanyeol’s there, time just flies.
“I’m home.” Baekhyun said while walking inside the house seeing as the lights were all on. Yixing came running out from the kitchen, seemingly excited.
“Hey! You went home alone today?”
Baekhyun suddenly felt his heart thump. “Uh…yeah.”
“I’ve prepared dinner.” Baekhyun nodded and took off his coat before proceeding to the kitchen. Yixing followed, holding a paper bag. “I got your medications.”
Baekhyun stared at the familiar bag. He knew the memories of his pain, all those weeks of taking in every drug when you yourself didn’t even have to will to live. It was torture for the most part but somehow…
“I’m so happy you finally decided to return to therapy, Baekhyun! What made you change your mind?”
…he looked at that bag differently now. He saw Chanyeol’s face and the variety of expressions he makes. “Life is wonderful, after all.”
Yixing could see it in his face. Baekhyun looked more alive than he ever was.
Baekhyun stared blankly at the ceiling. Lately, he seemed to be in daze. Though he’s starting to finally live his life, it still seemed too unreachable. It’s fragile. Like any time now, everything will be taken from him. He glanced around his room. He had never felt so comfortable being inside his room like this. So many new memories were here now and it’s definitely a wonderful thing.
He caught sight of Chanyeol’s coat hung on the ceiling. “His coat…” He immediately grabbed his phone. I should’ve returned it last time. But I forgot…
He blinked when twitter opened the instant he unlocked the screen. Sehun had so many posts about their party. It looked like they were really having fun. He decided to tweet Chanyeol since he seemed to be active right now though he probably wouldn’t be getting an immediate response seeing as how they were obviously having fun.
Byun Baekhyun @bbhyun @pcysuperman Chanyeol, I forgot to return your coat last night.
@pcysuperman @bbhyun I know. I saw it last night. Keep it. J
So fast! Baekhyun sighed. He was typing a reply when he received another notification.
@pcysuperman @bbhyun hey. I’ll call you.
Baekhyun jumped when his phone suddenly started ringing with Chanyeol’s name displayed on the screen. He immediately answered. “Chanyeol?”
“What are you doing suddenly tweeting me like that?”
His voice…
“Baekhyun, you never think about my feelings at all. I almost died of excitement.”
“I’m sorry!”
Chanyeol laughed. “It’s okay. Should I call you more often? I like hearing your voice so close to my ears like this.”
“I…I like Chanyeol’s voice too.”
“….”
“It’s deep and cool. It feels soothing.” Baekhyun heard Chanyeol chuckle.
“You’re doing it again...”
“Huh?”
“I want to see you.”
Baekhyun froze.
“Hey Chanyeol! What are you doing out there you’ll catch a cold!”
“I’m fine!”
Baekhyun grabbed Chanyeol’s coat and hurried outside.
Chanyeol was really hopelessly in love.
“I want to see you.” Or so he said but the instant he sees Baekhyun’s face, his heart would really explode. It’s already beating too much just by hearing Baekhyun’s voice over the phone.
“…me too.” Chanyeol’s eyes widened after hearng Baekhyun’s reply. “I want to see you too.”
“Oy, Chanyeol! We bought cake!” One of his friends yelled from the shop.
“Yeah, wait a sec!” Chanyeol yelled back. “Baek-“
“Don’t go in!” Chanyeol paused. “I’m sorry…I meant…”
“Baekhyun? Are you outside?”
“Y-yeah…”
“What are you doing outside? It’s already late!”
“I told you. Didn’t you say it as well?”
“I want to see you.” Chanyeol immediately turned around him and froze at the sight of Baekhyun running towards him, holding his coat around his arm, and stopping in front of him, gasping for breath.
“You…” It all seemed too surreal, looking at Baekhyun like this, standing in front of him. “Why are you here?”
“I brought your coat. I was worried you’d catch a cold-“ Baekhyun gasped when Chanyeol’s arms suddenly pulled him to his chest.
No, actually. It didn’t matter whatever reason Baekhyun had. Whenever he wants to come running to him like this, Chanyeol will always embrace him.
“Idiot. You could’ve just told me to come. What if something happened to you in the way?”
“If I did, I wouldn’t have been able see that look on your face.” Baekhyun said, feeling Chanyeol’s hold around him tighten. “Besides, I don’t want to ruin your fun. You’re having a party right?”
“It’s already a party out here with you.”
“Way to go, Chanyeol!”
“Whooo!”
Chanyeol glared at his friends with his face all read of embarrassment. “Shut up! Go back in already!”
Baekhyun suddenly felt his chest tighten and brought his hand up. He really shouldn’t have run after all. He came here in a whim, not thinking about anything else at all. He brought nothing but Chanyeol’s coat, not even his medications. He silently wished he wouldn't get an attack now.
The ridiculous whistled and teasing didn’t stop even though Chanyeol was constantly telling them to go back inside. Baekhyun was embarrassed as well, to be the subject of such, but that’s the least of his concern right now.
“Ah, if it isn’t Baekhyun.” Baekhyun turned around and saw Luhan standing and looking at him while holding a plastic bag. “Did you come here to party with us?” Luhan asked, smirking as if he was purposely teasing him.
“Uh, no, I came to return Chanyeol’s coat…ah-“ Baekhyun didn’t know why but he suddenly felt so embarrassed saying it.
Luhan grinned widely at him. “I see.” He looked scary to Baekhyun; like he knows something or that he’s planning something. Other than that, he’s definitely entertained by these events. “So you’re in that stage now huh, Chanyeol?”
“Oh come on, not you too!” Chanyeol yelled at him, or rather, whined.
Luhan placed his arm on Baekhyun’s shoulders. “Well, why don’t you come in? Since you came here, you should party with us.”
“Sorry, I don’t party.” Not anymore. “Besides, I only came here to give something to Chanyeol. I should be going. I can’t stay out late.”
“You’re going already?” Chanyeol asked in utter disappointment.
That’s not the point. Luhan though while pulling his arm off of Baekhyun’s shoulders. You came here on your own instead of telling Chanyeol to come. What do you think you’re doing? Really. It’s hard to be the only one aware of someone else’ naivety. He continued to stare at Baekhyun until he noticed the latter's uneven breathing. Chanyeol wouldn’t have noticed such an alarming thing. “Oi,” Luhan called and Baekhyun turned to him. “Did you run here?” Baekhyun nodded and Luhan felt like snapping in him half. Even running when you know it’s dangerous to your body. He sighed and turned to Chanyeol who still hasn’t successfully eradicated the bystanders watching them. “Chanyeol, he’s right. He should be going back. You should be taking care of him.”
Chanyeol glared at him. “I know that! It’s not like I was going to force him to stay…”
“Liar.” Luhan deadpanned.
“I’m not lying! More than anything, Baekhyun’s safety is my first priority!”
…..
Chanyeol immediately turned back to his troublesome friends and as expected, found all of them busy typing in their phones probably updating what Sehun has started ‘Wise Words of Master Park Chanyeol: The God of Unrequited Love’ which was further supported by Chanyeol’s phone constantly vibrating after a minute.
Baekhyun could feel his heart beating fast. But in this situation, he didn’t know if it’s because of Chanyeol’s words or just merely because of cardiac error resulting from his reckless running on the way here earlier. Still, he needed to go home now. It’s already starting to feel uncomfortable.
Luhan noticed it. It probably didn’t make sense how he constantly watched over Baekhyun secretly like this but someone that naïve and frail was troublesome to be left on his own. Even though Chanyeol was always beside him, it’s not considered precaution when Chanyeol had no knowledge about the situation. It’s quite heartbreaking.
Luhan sighed and turned to Chanyeol. “Oi, let him go home already.”
“Ah! Right!” Chanyeol immediately walked beside Baekhyun. “Sorry for dragging you out here.”
“It’s okay. I came on my own.”
“Baekhyun, here.” Luhan threw him a juice box. “Drink it on the way home. Be careful, okay?”
Baekhyun nodded with a smile before Chanyeol finally took his hand. Luhan watched them go, hand in hand; secretly wishing the image wouldn't fade away. It’s a beautiful thing, what they have is a beautiful thing.
It’s winter so it was quite cold so Baekhyun didn’t understand why Luhan would give him a box of banana juice but out of gratitude, he drank it anyway.
Chanyeol’s hand was still holding his and it felt comfortable because it’s warm. Chanyeol was really warm and that might be one of the things he liked the most about the taller. May it be physical or physiological, he doesn’t care, all he knew was that when Chanyeol’s with him, he always felt so warm and fuzzy inside.
“Chanyeol,” Chanyeol turned his head to him. “Did you drink a lot?”
“Do you mean am I drunk?” Chanyeol chuckled. “No, I’m not. I wouldn’t. I mean, over something like your first kiss.” Baekhyun lowered head, feeling embarrassed. It’s not something cheap after all, Baekhyun’s first kiss. And Chanyeol wanted to retain that memory in his head without ever thinking of getting drunk because of that special thing. “Haha. Sehun told me.”
“I-I see…” Baekhyun bit his lip. “So…why did you go drinking today?”
“It was just an excuse to party though they really are nice people, they support me with you wholeheartedly, you know. It would’ve been embarrassing if you were there. All we talked about was you.”
“Why?”
“It’s your fault for giving me your first kiss.”
Now Baekhyun was really red. He couldn’t even look at Chanyeol anymore. He didn’t even know when he started feeling this way but his heart was just beating so fast. “Come on, don’t hide your face. I want to see your blushing face.” Chanyeol teased and Baekhyun immediately turned his head away. Chanyeol stopped walking and suddenly pushed Baekhyun against the concrete wall. “Baekhyun. Look at me.” Baekhyun wasn’t responding and continued to hide his face so Chanyeol decided to lift his chin up with his fingers, forcing Baekhyun to look at him. Such a cute blushing face. If he could, Chanyeol would’ve put him in his pocket and take him home.
“If you’re embarrassed, what do you think am I feeling right now? I feel like my heart’s going to explode just by looking at you like this.” Chanyeol whispered softly.
Saying something so bold…Baekhyun attempted to look away but Chanyeol pulled his face back as he leaned in for a soft kiss. Baekhyun was surprised, he barely could response. He was stiff but he knew he wouldn’t be able to last and eventually gave in and kissed him back. He felt Chanyeol’s tongue run across his bottom lip and he opened his mouth to let him in to explore his mouth. It carried on until they had no air left and had to break apart to breathe. Baekhyun felt so weak he ended up leaning his head against Chanyeol’s shoulders while breathing heavily.
“Baekhyun, you really taste so sweet.”
“Shut up.”
“Are you okay?”
“I’m fine.”
“Should I carry you home?”
Baekhyun kicked his knee and carried on walking. “Don’t get carried away!”
Chanyeol laughed and immediately followed him, of course, without forgetting to take his hand. Chanyeol had never imagined he’d get to hold Baekhyun like this and give him surprise kisses so maybe just this time it’s alright to be greedy and selfish.
Chanyeol insisted on going in to apologize and explain to Yixing why Baekhyun had to go out suddenly though those empty words of reasons were left unheard seeing as rather than upset, Yixing was quite happy seeing Chanyeol at their door step. Baekhyun noticed a sense of familiarity between the two then realized that it may be because they often see each other every morning.
Chanyeol left after a few minutes after constantly declining Yixing’s offer to stay the night explaining that he couldn’t leave his friends alone in the store celebrating on their own. Baekhyun agreed, though for him having Chanyeol stay the night would just make his heart feel more restless.
Baekhyun stretched his arms. All he did was run a few blocks yet he felt like he ran in a marathon. Having this condition was really troublesome. He was walking towards the kitchen when Yixing noticed the juice on his hand and called his attention. “Were you not feeling good when you went out?”
Baekhyun stopped and turned to Yixing with a confused face. “What?”
“That juice…”
Baekhyun looked at the juice he’s holding then back at Yixing. “Ah, Chanyeol’s friend gave this to me before we went back.”
“I see.” Yixing said with a relieved smile. “I thought you suddenly had an attack so you bought that juice. You scared me there.”
“Huh? Why would you think that?”
“Oh, we normally offer that juice to younger patients who have the same conditions as yours to calm their heart down. You know, since bananas are natural beta-blockers. Patients are quite a handful when they refuse medicines so sometimes we resort to natural ones.” Yixing explained thoroughly and suddenly noticed Baekhyun’s bothered expression. “Baekhyun? What’s wrong?”
“Drink it on the way home. Be careful, okay?”
“Wasn’t he just…being kind?” Baekhyun mumbled to himself in wonder.
“Baek?”
Baekhyun turned to Yixing and faked a chuckle. “Ah, I’m tired. I’m heading to bed.” He said while throwing the juice box on the trashcan. Yixing nodded and watched him walk upstairs. There was a fine line between being tired and being bothered and Yixing could see through it yet Baekhyun still remained naïve on that fact.
Yixing sighed. How much longer do you want to suffer on your own?
Chanyeol yawned while glancing around the room. He came home late because of the party and had to wake up early to walk Baekhyun to school so in short not only was he still a bit slightly hangover, he also didn’t get enough sleep. He would skip school but there’s no way he would sacrifice a day to see Baekhyun. Though, seeing as how lively the morning was even though it’s still early, it helped taking his mind off to wanting to sleep.
It seems like the whole school was talking about his and his friends’ twitter outburst last night. There’s no one to blame, they were pretty drunk after all. He just hoped Baekhyun didn’t see them or it’s going to be a major turn-off. That being said, Chanyeol didn’t really consider himself and the rest of his friends a hotshot in the school. It’s just that he made such a commotion after getting rejected the first time he confessed to Baekhyun, putting all the efforts and money to waste. Normally he would cry remembering that day but seeing how things turned out, he could just laugh at it freely.
Chanyeol sighed at the sight of Luhan sleeping on his desk. He was the most drunk out of them all. He kicked his chair and Luhan mumbled in complaint. “Oi, class will start soon. Get up or the teacher will know you’re hangover.”
“I’m not…drunk…”
“…you’ve been saying that since last night. Seriously, Luhan.”
“Shut up…”
Chanyeol sighed again. He turned to Jongdae while standing up. “When the teacher comes, please tell him I’m at the infirmary. I need to get pills for this guy.” Jongdae nodded while chuckling then he left immediately.
“Luhan.” Jongdae called while poking the older male.
Luhan moaned in annoyance. “What.”
“Someone’s looking for you outside.”
“Tell them I’m not interested in relationships…”
Luhan heard a faint chuckle. “It’s Byun Baekhyun.”
Luhan immediately sat up at the mention of the name. “WHAT.” He turned to the door and saw Baekhyun standing by the doorway. He’s not here for Chanyeol? He walked over immediately.
Baekhyun offered him a banana juice, the same one he gave to him last night. Luhan wasn’t sure what the gesture was for. “Uh…”
“It’s for last night.” Baekhyun said.
Luhan chuckled in response. “That’s okay. You don’t have to repay me. You need it more.”
“So you know.”
“Ah?” Oh crap. Did I just open a black hole? No, you can still save yourself! “Know what?”
“Don’t lie.” Baekhyun warned him. He looked around and suddenly pulled Luhan with him somewhere towards an isolated staircase. “We can talk better here.”
“Baekhyun, what are you-“
“You know, don’t you? That’s why you’ve been helping me.”
Baekhyun had that look in his eyes and Luhan couldn’t possibly lie to him in this situation. “Yes, okay, I know. What about it?” Even so, how did he come up with this conclusion when I just gave him a juice box? When I was at the convenience store, I saw him running pass by and I bought the juice in a rush out of worry, just in case. Just in case. Though looking at his expression now, it seemed like Baekhyun didn’t want to get that kind of answer from him.
“Then…” Baekhyun lowered his head. “Is it pity?”
Luhan wanted to punch him. What is he sprouting now?
“You like Chanyeol, don’t you?” Baekhyun asked boldly, making Luhan feel uncomfortable.
“You…” Luhan didn’t know how to answer. He couldn’t lie because it’s true. He couldn’t tell the truth either because what would that make him look like?
“That’s why…” Baekhyun continued. “That’s why you came to me to talk to me that day…you were against it before you knew about my condition, right? So now you’re not doing anything because you pity someone like me-”
Luhan yawned, interrupting Baekhyun’s monologue. “How long are you going to make assumptions there?”
Baekhyun only blinked at him in response.
“Don’t think so highly of yourself that someone like me would pity someone like you. Yes I do like Chanyeol in a romantic way and yes from the very first place, I was against this but I’m also his best friend. I’m not doing this because I pity you; I’m doing this because it makes that dumb guy happy. But you can’t expect me to not bat an eye when I know about your condition. It’s not pity, it's being human.”
Baekhyun bit his lips. “But…maybe if you told him how you feel then things wouldn’t turn out this way…when I’m gone-“
“Are you stupid? Do you think if I told him, it’ll change everything? He’s been chasing you for months, he’d carry on for years without caring about the other people who likes him the same way. Don’t think about other people and focus on your health, dumbass. Don’t give me that when I’m gone shit cause I’m totally going to strangle you. If you don’t want to see Chanyeol sad then don’t think about the worst case scenario and keep living, stupid.”
“Do you…really feel that way?”
“I’m not some evil villain, you know.” Luhan sighed and patted Baekhyun’s head. “You two are perfect together. Don’t deprive the world of such beauty.”
Baekhyun just blinked at him in awe. “Luhan, surprisingly, you went from vulgar to sweet so quickly!”
Luhan flinched. Oh crap. He saw two sides of me!
Baekhyun then broke out in a chuckle. “But I get it now. Thank you. You really are a good person, Luhan.” He smiled weakly at him. “I guess because I have such a condition that I’ve become pretty dense to other people’s feelings. I’ve always thought that if people knew about my condition, they’d treat me differently, that they’d approach me out of pity. That’s what happened to Yixing so I got ahead of myself. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said all those things.”
“No need to apologize! It happens!” Luhan reassured him quickly.
Baekhyun smiled widely in relief. “Ah, by the way, about my condition…did you…”
“Tell Chanyeol? Of course not. That’s not something I should be telling him, right?” Luhan saw him smile sadly. “So, why won’t you tell him?”
“I…I don’t want to.”
“Hm? Don’t you like him?”
“I do! I really do like him. But I don’t want to tell him.”
“Why not?”
Baekhyun looked hesitant for a moment, fidgeting here and there and whispering to himself. Luhan had almost given up, given that it’s not his forte to bully people anyway and force answers out of them but Baekhyun suddenly started talking. “Luhan, right now, I’m really working hard. I went back to therapy and I’m taking my medications. Just like you said, I’ll try to keep living. I don’t want Chanyeol to get worried. He always has a positive thinking and a wide smile on his face so I want to keep that image of him forever. It doesn’t matter if I do this alone…I just don’t want to see Chanyeol’s smile waver every time he gets reminded about my condition…that’s why…”
“Agh! Stop it already!” Luhan yelled in frustration while sniffing. “You’re making me cry! Chanyeol you lucky bastard!” Baekhyun laughed at him. “You two are amazing. Looks like I made the right decision.” Baekhyun suddenly blushed after realizing what he had said so many embarrassing things and tried to cover his face with his palms. Luhan laughed at him this time. “Wahaha, are you blushing?” He took his phone out immediately and started taking photos of him. “Don’t hide your face!”
“Luhan, you actually are a bully!”
Eventually, summer was already fast approaching. The basketball club where Chanyeol’s apparently a varsity member started practicing more and more every day for the upcoming tournament so Baekhyun would come to the gym and wait for them to finish so he and Chanyeol could go home together. Other times, it’s Chanyeol who waited for Baekhyun to finish studying at the library so they could go home together. There was no written agreement about this routine, it just happened and it became a second nature for them to always go home together, whatever the weather is, may it be rainy or sunny, just always together.
Luhan had also started to take his mind off of worrying over the little things Baekhyun does seeing as how the both of them look completely happy.
He had no idea what would’ve come.
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Pairing: Chanyeol/Baekhyun
Genre: Romance, Drama
Word Count: 26,ooo+
Summary: Chanyeol doesn’t miss a day confessing his love to Baekhyun. Baekhyun, on the other hand, doesn’t miss a day rejecting him.
In the end, Baekhyun couldn’t really let Chanyeol sleep outside so he let him in after some time though he refused to talk to him. Chanyeol was depressed throughout the night, even now he’s still thinking about it. Baekhyun had already turned off the lights and was probably sleeping right now. Chanyeol had his own mattress on the floor.
Chanyeol glanced at Baekhyun’s bed. Judging by his position, with his back facing him, Baekhyun really was mad. And that made Chanyeol more depressed.
“Hey, Baekhyun, are you really asleep?” Silence. Chanyeol sighed. “I’ve probably said this a hundred times now but I really am sorry for what happened earlier. I got too excited. I just love you so much that after touching you, everything I’ve been holding in just exploded.” He sighed again. He was too caught up with his sadness that he didn’t realize Baekhyun has turned his body to the edge of his bed and leaned down, kissing him, again.
It was too dark. Chanyeol couldn’t see his face. He can only feel his lips and his hair brushing against his face.
“I know.” Baekhyun said hoarsely after breaking the kiss. “But right now…I can only give you this much. Even I am confused…so until I figure out what to do after this…please settle for a kiss.”
It’s too much. It’s already too much. Baekhyun started leaning back up but Chanyeol immediately sat up and grabbed his shoulders, pulling him into a tight hug. “Chanyeol…?”
“You…you do this every time…” Chanyeol mumbled against Baekhyun’s neck.
“What?”
“I love you so much. I just…love you so much…”
Baekhyun smiled. “Enough already. You’ve been saying that since-“
“I don’t care. I’ll say it as many times I can.”
Silence came after that but it was a comfortable silence. Even until now, what this person was showing him, for Baekhyun it was all too overwhelming. He noticed the dim light from the windows and glances outside. The moon was beautiful. Chanyeol’s feelings…were beautiful. Baekhyun would do anything to make it last.
They didn’t know how long they stayed like that before they finally went to sleep but even so…the night they spent together was the most beautiful night.
Luhan was grinning proudly at everyone in the hallway after hearing of Chanyeol’s progress that night with of course half the credit to “Matchmaker Luhan” who owns a magic dildo.
Though they were more worried about Chanyeol seeing as he had been in a daze all day, daydreaming while blushing like a little girl.
“Was his kiss really that good?” Luhan asked at lunchtime.
Jongdae snorted. “Luhan, there’s no way you would understand the feeling of kissing the one you’ve been chasing for half of your school life.”
“Yeah right back at you. Didn’t you get rejected by Baekhyun? And then you gave up? Are you jealous of Chanyeol now? He got to kiss the guy you were never able to-“
“Shut up!”
“Ah…it was his first kiss.” Sehun said out of the blue.
Chanyeol snapped. “W-W-W-W-W-W-WHAT?! WAIT I FORGOT TO ASK HIM THAT! WHAT IF IT WAS REALLY HIS FIRST KISS!”
“It was.”
“NO WE CAN’T BE SURE! SOMEONE WITH THAT FACE HAS SURELY…” Sehun showed him his phone screen.
OHorat @sehunthegreat @bbhyun Hey Byun, did that happen to be your first kiss?
@bbhyun @sehunthegreat Ah he told you? >///< I didn’t think about that…but yeah it was
Chanyeol immediately snatched Sehun’s phone. He even used a blushing emoticon! Ah my heart!
BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY
“F-F-F-F-F-F-F-F-FIRST KISS!”
“CONGRATULATIONS!!!” Luhan, Jongdae and Sehun yelled in excitement while clapping and dancing all over the place.
“My friend…you have done well in life.” Luhan said while patting Chanyeol’s shoulders proudly. “This calls for a celebration!”
OHorat @sehunthegreat CELEBRATING CHANYEOL TAKING BAEKHYUN’S FIRST KISS TONIGHT WHO WANTS TO COME AND PAY FOR ALL THE EXPENSES! (p.s junmyeon hyung bbuing bbuing)
@lame_berry @sehunthegreat WOW CONGRATS
@thekimjnmyn @sehunthegreat good grief. What would you do without me?
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@pcysuperman @sehunthegreat YOU BRAT! What if Baekhyun sees this?!
Baekhyun sighed before locking his phone. “So that’s why I’m walking home alone today…” He had to admit; it kind of felt empty without Chanyeol constantly talking nonsense around him. But he seemed happy so it’s okay. He walked through his usual route though Baekhyun realized walking without Chanyeol made him feel like he’s taking a long route. It’s just…when Chanyeol’s there, time just flies.
“I’m home.” Baekhyun said while walking inside the house seeing as the lights were all on. Yixing came running out from the kitchen, seemingly excited.
“Hey! You went home alone today?”
Baekhyun suddenly felt his heart thump. “Uh…yeah.”
“I’ve prepared dinner.” Baekhyun nodded and took off his coat before proceeding to the kitchen. Yixing followed, holding a paper bag. “I got your medications.”
Baekhyun stared at the familiar bag. He knew the memories of his pain, all those weeks of taking in every drug when you yourself didn’t even have to will to live. It was torture for the most part but somehow…
“I’m so happy you finally decided to return to therapy, Baekhyun! What made you change your mind?”
…he looked at that bag differently now. He saw Chanyeol’s face and the variety of expressions he makes. “Life is wonderful, after all.”
Yixing could see it in his face. Baekhyun looked more alive than he ever was.
Baekhyun stared blankly at the ceiling. Lately, he seemed to be in daze. Though he’s starting to finally live his life, it still seemed too unreachable. It’s fragile. Like any time now, everything will be taken from him. He glanced around his room. He had never felt so comfortable being inside his room like this. So many new memories were here now and it’s definitely a wonderful thing.
He caught sight of Chanyeol’s coat hung on the ceiling. “His coat…” He immediately grabbed his phone. I should’ve returned it last time. But I forgot…
He blinked when twitter opened the instant he unlocked the screen. Sehun had so many posts about their party. It looked like they were really having fun. He decided to tweet Chanyeol since he seemed to be active right now though he probably wouldn’t be getting an immediate response seeing as how they were obviously having fun.
Byun Baekhyun @bbhyun @pcysuperman Chanyeol, I forgot to return your coat last night.
@pcysuperman @bbhyun I know. I saw it last night. Keep it. J
So fast! Baekhyun sighed. He was typing a reply when he received another notification.
@pcysuperman @bbhyun hey. I’ll call you.
Baekhyun jumped when his phone suddenly started ringing with Chanyeol’s name displayed on the screen. He immediately answered. “Chanyeol?”
“What are you doing suddenly tweeting me like that?”
His voice…
“Baekhyun, you never think about my feelings at all. I almost died of excitement.”
“I’m sorry!”
Chanyeol laughed. “It’s okay. Should I call you more often? I like hearing your voice so close to my ears like this.”
“I…I like Chanyeol’s voice too.”
“….”
“It’s deep and cool. It feels soothing.” Baekhyun heard Chanyeol chuckle.
“You’re doing it again...”
“Huh?”
“I want to see you.”
Baekhyun froze.
“Hey Chanyeol! What are you doing out there you’ll catch a cold!”
“I’m fine!”
Baekhyun grabbed Chanyeol’s coat and hurried outside.
Chanyeol was really hopelessly in love.
“I want to see you.” Or so he said but the instant he sees Baekhyun’s face, his heart would really explode. It’s already beating too much just by hearing Baekhyun’s voice over the phone.
“…me too.” Chanyeol’s eyes widened after hearng Baekhyun’s reply. “I want to see you too.”
“Oy, Chanyeol! We bought cake!” One of his friends yelled from the shop.
“Yeah, wait a sec!” Chanyeol yelled back. “Baek-“
“Don’t go in!” Chanyeol paused. “I’m sorry…I meant…”
“Baekhyun? Are you outside?”
“Y-yeah…”
“What are you doing outside? It’s already late!”
“I told you. Didn’t you say it as well?”
“I want to see you.” Chanyeol immediately turned around him and froze at the sight of Baekhyun running towards him, holding his coat around his arm, and stopping in front of him, gasping for breath.
“You…” It all seemed too surreal, looking at Baekhyun like this, standing in front of him. “Why are you here?”
“I brought your coat. I was worried you’d catch a cold-“ Baekhyun gasped when Chanyeol’s arms suddenly pulled him to his chest.
No, actually. It didn’t matter whatever reason Baekhyun had. Whenever he wants to come running to him like this, Chanyeol will always embrace him.
“Idiot. You could’ve just told me to come. What if something happened to you in the way?”
“If I did, I wouldn’t have been able see that look on your face.” Baekhyun said, feeling Chanyeol’s hold around him tighten. “Besides, I don’t want to ruin your fun. You’re having a party right?”
“It’s already a party out here with you.”
“Way to go, Chanyeol!”
“Whooo!”
Chanyeol glared at his friends with his face all read of embarrassment. “Shut up! Go back in already!”
Baekhyun suddenly felt his chest tighten and brought his hand up. He really shouldn’t have run after all. He came here in a whim, not thinking about anything else at all. He brought nothing but Chanyeol’s coat, not even his medications. He silently wished he wouldn't get an attack now.
The ridiculous whistled and teasing didn’t stop even though Chanyeol was constantly telling them to go back inside. Baekhyun was embarrassed as well, to be the subject of such, but that’s the least of his concern right now.
“Ah, if it isn’t Baekhyun.” Baekhyun turned around and saw Luhan standing and looking at him while holding a plastic bag. “Did you come here to party with us?” Luhan asked, smirking as if he was purposely teasing him.
“Uh, no, I came to return Chanyeol’s coat…ah-“ Baekhyun didn’t know why but he suddenly felt so embarrassed saying it.
Luhan grinned widely at him. “I see.” He looked scary to Baekhyun; like he knows something or that he’s planning something. Other than that, he’s definitely entertained by these events. “So you’re in that stage now huh, Chanyeol?”
“Oh come on, not you too!” Chanyeol yelled at him, or rather, whined.
Luhan placed his arm on Baekhyun’s shoulders. “Well, why don’t you come in? Since you came here, you should party with us.”
“Sorry, I don’t party.” Not anymore. “Besides, I only came here to give something to Chanyeol. I should be going. I can’t stay out late.”
“You’re going already?” Chanyeol asked in utter disappointment.
That’s not the point. Luhan though while pulling his arm off of Baekhyun’s shoulders. You came here on your own instead of telling Chanyeol to come. What do you think you’re doing? Really. It’s hard to be the only one aware of someone else’ naivety. He continued to stare at Baekhyun until he noticed the latter's uneven breathing. Chanyeol wouldn’t have noticed such an alarming thing. “Oi,” Luhan called and Baekhyun turned to him. “Did you run here?” Baekhyun nodded and Luhan felt like snapping in him half. Even running when you know it’s dangerous to your body. He sighed and turned to Chanyeol who still hasn’t successfully eradicated the bystanders watching them. “Chanyeol, he’s right. He should be going back. You should be taking care of him.”
Chanyeol glared at him. “I know that! It’s not like I was going to force him to stay…”
“Liar.” Luhan deadpanned.
“I’m not lying! More than anything, Baekhyun’s safety is my first priority!”
…..
Chanyeol immediately turned back to his troublesome friends and as expected, found all of them busy typing in their phones probably updating what Sehun has started ‘Wise Words of Master Park Chanyeol: The God of Unrequited Love’ which was further supported by Chanyeol’s phone constantly vibrating after a minute.
Baekhyun could feel his heart beating fast. But in this situation, he didn’t know if it’s because of Chanyeol’s words or just merely because of cardiac error resulting from his reckless running on the way here earlier. Still, he needed to go home now. It’s already starting to feel uncomfortable.
Luhan noticed it. It probably didn’t make sense how he constantly watched over Baekhyun secretly like this but someone that naïve and frail was troublesome to be left on his own. Even though Chanyeol was always beside him, it’s not considered precaution when Chanyeol had no knowledge about the situation. It’s quite heartbreaking.
Luhan sighed and turned to Chanyeol. “Oi, let him go home already.”
“Ah! Right!” Chanyeol immediately walked beside Baekhyun. “Sorry for dragging you out here.”
“It’s okay. I came on my own.”
“Baekhyun, here.” Luhan threw him a juice box. “Drink it on the way home. Be careful, okay?”
Baekhyun nodded with a smile before Chanyeol finally took his hand. Luhan watched them go, hand in hand; secretly wishing the image wouldn't fade away. It’s a beautiful thing, what they have is a beautiful thing.
It’s winter so it was quite cold so Baekhyun didn’t understand why Luhan would give him a box of banana juice but out of gratitude, he drank it anyway.
Chanyeol’s hand was still holding his and it felt comfortable because it’s warm. Chanyeol was really warm and that might be one of the things he liked the most about the taller. May it be physical or physiological, he doesn’t care, all he knew was that when Chanyeol’s with him, he always felt so warm and fuzzy inside.
“Chanyeol,” Chanyeol turned his head to him. “Did you drink a lot?”
“Do you mean am I drunk?” Chanyeol chuckled. “No, I’m not. I wouldn’t. I mean, over something like your first kiss.” Baekhyun lowered head, feeling embarrassed. It’s not something cheap after all, Baekhyun’s first kiss. And Chanyeol wanted to retain that memory in his head without ever thinking of getting drunk because of that special thing. “Haha. Sehun told me.”
“I-I see…” Baekhyun bit his lip. “So…why did you go drinking today?”
“It was just an excuse to party though they really are nice people, they support me with you wholeheartedly, you know. It would’ve been embarrassing if you were there. All we talked about was you.”
“Why?”
“It’s your fault for giving me your first kiss.”
Now Baekhyun was really red. He couldn’t even look at Chanyeol anymore. He didn’t even know when he started feeling this way but his heart was just beating so fast. “Come on, don’t hide your face. I want to see your blushing face.” Chanyeol teased and Baekhyun immediately turned his head away. Chanyeol stopped walking and suddenly pushed Baekhyun against the concrete wall. “Baekhyun. Look at me.” Baekhyun wasn’t responding and continued to hide his face so Chanyeol decided to lift his chin up with his fingers, forcing Baekhyun to look at him. Such a cute blushing face. If he could, Chanyeol would’ve put him in his pocket and take him home.
“If you’re embarrassed, what do you think am I feeling right now? I feel like my heart’s going to explode just by looking at you like this.” Chanyeol whispered softly.
Saying something so bold…Baekhyun attempted to look away but Chanyeol pulled his face back as he leaned in for a soft kiss. Baekhyun was surprised, he barely could response. He was stiff but he knew he wouldn’t be able to last and eventually gave in and kissed him back. He felt Chanyeol’s tongue run across his bottom lip and he opened his mouth to let him in to explore his mouth. It carried on until they had no air left and had to break apart to breathe. Baekhyun felt so weak he ended up leaning his head against Chanyeol’s shoulders while breathing heavily.
“Baekhyun, you really taste so sweet.”
“Shut up.”
“Are you okay?”
“I’m fine.”
“Should I carry you home?”
Baekhyun kicked his knee and carried on walking. “Don’t get carried away!”
Chanyeol laughed and immediately followed him, of course, without forgetting to take his hand. Chanyeol had never imagined he’d get to hold Baekhyun like this and give him surprise kisses so maybe just this time it’s alright to be greedy and selfish.
Chanyeol insisted on going in to apologize and explain to Yixing why Baekhyun had to go out suddenly though those empty words of reasons were left unheard seeing as rather than upset, Yixing was quite happy seeing Chanyeol at their door step. Baekhyun noticed a sense of familiarity between the two then realized that it may be because they often see each other every morning.
Chanyeol left after a few minutes after constantly declining Yixing’s offer to stay the night explaining that he couldn’t leave his friends alone in the store celebrating on their own. Baekhyun agreed, though for him having Chanyeol stay the night would just make his heart feel more restless.
Baekhyun stretched his arms. All he did was run a few blocks yet he felt like he ran in a marathon. Having this condition was really troublesome. He was walking towards the kitchen when Yixing noticed the juice on his hand and called his attention. “Were you not feeling good when you went out?”
Baekhyun stopped and turned to Yixing with a confused face. “What?”
“That juice…”
Baekhyun looked at the juice he’s holding then back at Yixing. “Ah, Chanyeol’s friend gave this to me before we went back.”
“I see.” Yixing said with a relieved smile. “I thought you suddenly had an attack so you bought that juice. You scared me there.”
“Huh? Why would you think that?”
“Oh, we normally offer that juice to younger patients who have the same conditions as yours to calm their heart down. You know, since bananas are natural beta-blockers. Patients are quite a handful when they refuse medicines so sometimes we resort to natural ones.” Yixing explained thoroughly and suddenly noticed Baekhyun’s bothered expression. “Baekhyun? What’s wrong?”
“Drink it on the way home. Be careful, okay?”
“Wasn’t he just…being kind?” Baekhyun mumbled to himself in wonder.
“Baek?”
Baekhyun turned to Yixing and faked a chuckle. “Ah, I’m tired. I’m heading to bed.” He said while throwing the juice box on the trashcan. Yixing nodded and watched him walk upstairs. There was a fine line between being tired and being bothered and Yixing could see through it yet Baekhyun still remained naïve on that fact.
Yixing sighed. How much longer do you want to suffer on your own?
Chanyeol yawned while glancing around the room. He came home late because of the party and had to wake up early to walk Baekhyun to school so in short not only was he still a bit slightly hangover, he also didn’t get enough sleep. He would skip school but there’s no way he would sacrifice a day to see Baekhyun. Though, seeing as how lively the morning was even though it’s still early, it helped taking his mind off to wanting to sleep.
It seems like the whole school was talking about his and his friends’ twitter outburst last night. There’s no one to blame, they were pretty drunk after all. He just hoped Baekhyun didn’t see them or it’s going to be a major turn-off. That being said, Chanyeol didn’t really consider himself and the rest of his friends a hotshot in the school. It’s just that he made such a commotion after getting rejected the first time he confessed to Baekhyun, putting all the efforts and money to waste. Normally he would cry remembering that day but seeing how things turned out, he could just laugh at it freely.
Chanyeol sighed at the sight of Luhan sleeping on his desk. He was the most drunk out of them all. He kicked his chair and Luhan mumbled in complaint. “Oi, class will start soon. Get up or the teacher will know you’re hangover.”
“I’m not…drunk…”
“…you’ve been saying that since last night. Seriously, Luhan.”
“Shut up…”
Chanyeol sighed again. He turned to Jongdae while standing up. “When the teacher comes, please tell him I’m at the infirmary. I need to get pills for this guy.” Jongdae nodded while chuckling then he left immediately.
“Luhan.” Jongdae called while poking the older male.
Luhan moaned in annoyance. “What.”
“Someone’s looking for you outside.”
“Tell them I’m not interested in relationships…”
Luhan heard a faint chuckle. “It’s Byun Baekhyun.”
Luhan immediately sat up at the mention of the name. “WHAT.” He turned to the door and saw Baekhyun standing by the doorway. He’s not here for Chanyeol? He walked over immediately.
Baekhyun offered him a banana juice, the same one he gave to him last night. Luhan wasn’t sure what the gesture was for. “Uh…”
“It’s for last night.” Baekhyun said.
Luhan chuckled in response. “That’s okay. You don’t have to repay me. You need it more.”
“So you know.”
“Ah?” Oh crap. Did I just open a black hole? No, you can still save yourself! “Know what?”
“Don’t lie.” Baekhyun warned him. He looked around and suddenly pulled Luhan with him somewhere towards an isolated staircase. “We can talk better here.”
“Baekhyun, what are you-“
“You know, don’t you? That’s why you’ve been helping me.”
Baekhyun had that look in his eyes and Luhan couldn’t possibly lie to him in this situation. “Yes, okay, I know. What about it?” Even so, how did he come up with this conclusion when I just gave him a juice box? When I was at the convenience store, I saw him running pass by and I bought the juice in a rush out of worry, just in case. Just in case. Though looking at his expression now, it seemed like Baekhyun didn’t want to get that kind of answer from him.
“Then…” Baekhyun lowered his head. “Is it pity?”
Luhan wanted to punch him. What is he sprouting now?
“You like Chanyeol, don’t you?” Baekhyun asked boldly, making Luhan feel uncomfortable.
“You…” Luhan didn’t know how to answer. He couldn’t lie because it’s true. He couldn’t tell the truth either because what would that make him look like?
“That’s why…” Baekhyun continued. “That’s why you came to me to talk to me that day…you were against it before you knew about my condition, right? So now you’re not doing anything because you pity someone like me-”
Luhan yawned, interrupting Baekhyun’s monologue. “How long are you going to make assumptions there?”
Baekhyun only blinked at him in response.
“Don’t think so highly of yourself that someone like me would pity someone like you. Yes I do like Chanyeol in a romantic way and yes from the very first place, I was against this but I’m also his best friend. I’m not doing this because I pity you; I’m doing this because it makes that dumb guy happy. But you can’t expect me to not bat an eye when I know about your condition. It’s not pity, it's being human.”
Baekhyun bit his lips. “But…maybe if you told him how you feel then things wouldn’t turn out this way…when I’m gone-“
“Are you stupid? Do you think if I told him, it’ll change everything? He’s been chasing you for months, he’d carry on for years without caring about the other people who likes him the same way. Don’t think about other people and focus on your health, dumbass. Don’t give me that when I’m gone shit cause I’m totally going to strangle you. If you don’t want to see Chanyeol sad then don’t think about the worst case scenario and keep living, stupid.”
“Do you…really feel that way?”
“I’m not some evil villain, you know.” Luhan sighed and patted Baekhyun’s head. “You two are perfect together. Don’t deprive the world of such beauty.”
Baekhyun just blinked at him in awe. “Luhan, surprisingly, you went from vulgar to sweet so quickly!”
Luhan flinched. Oh crap. He saw two sides of me!
Baekhyun then broke out in a chuckle. “But I get it now. Thank you. You really are a good person, Luhan.” He smiled weakly at him. “I guess because I have such a condition that I’ve become pretty dense to other people’s feelings. I’ve always thought that if people knew about my condition, they’d treat me differently, that they’d approach me out of pity. That’s what happened to Yixing so I got ahead of myself. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said all those things.”
“No need to apologize! It happens!” Luhan reassured him quickly.
Baekhyun smiled widely in relief. “Ah, by the way, about my condition…did you…”
“Tell Chanyeol? Of course not. That’s not something I should be telling him, right?” Luhan saw him smile sadly. “So, why won’t you tell him?”
“I…I don’t want to.”
“Hm? Don’t you like him?”
“I do! I really do like him. But I don’t want to tell him.”
“Why not?”
Baekhyun looked hesitant for a moment, fidgeting here and there and whispering to himself. Luhan had almost given up, given that it’s not his forte to bully people anyway and force answers out of them but Baekhyun suddenly started talking. “Luhan, right now, I’m really working hard. I went back to therapy and I’m taking my medications. Just like you said, I’ll try to keep living. I don’t want Chanyeol to get worried. He always has a positive thinking and a wide smile on his face so I want to keep that image of him forever. It doesn’t matter if I do this alone…I just don’t want to see Chanyeol’s smile waver every time he gets reminded about my condition…that’s why…”
“Agh! Stop it already!” Luhan yelled in frustration while sniffing. “You’re making me cry! Chanyeol you lucky bastard!” Baekhyun laughed at him. “You two are amazing. Looks like I made the right decision.” Baekhyun suddenly blushed after realizing what he had said so many embarrassing things and tried to cover his face with his palms. Luhan laughed at him this time. “Wahaha, are you blushing?” He took his phone out immediately and started taking photos of him. “Don’t hide your face!”
“Luhan, you actually are a bully!”
Eventually, summer was already fast approaching. The basketball club where Chanyeol’s apparently a varsity member started practicing more and more every day for the upcoming tournament so Baekhyun would come to the gym and wait for them to finish so he and Chanyeol could go home together. Other times, it’s Chanyeol who waited for Baekhyun to finish studying at the library so they could go home together. There was no written agreement about this routine, it just happened and it became a second nature for them to always go home together, whatever the weather is, may it be rainy or sunny, just always together.
Luhan had also started to take his mind off of worrying over the little things Baekhyun does seeing as how the both of them look completely happy.
He had no idea what would’ve come.
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