my thoughts are too controversial to be posted. so I'll tell you only if you ask, maybe. or maybe not.

its unfortunate tt church hasnt been a place of solace for me, over the past month, or so. I think the more I keep away, the more I feel that I need this silence. idk why there's a nagging feeling in me that tells me that I will be more at peace if ( Read more... )

I think my lecturer doesnt like me cos I said then forbidden phrase: I DONT KNOW.

funny eh. seems to only happen in sg. its so easy to admit defeat in the classroom. its ok to not know, I think. tts why I'm in school? but clearly, keith harris doesnt share my belief. I better buck up or he'll hate me even more. :/

there's much to do this term. I'm ( Read more... )

this break, although I planned for a couple of trips, none came to play. still, I had a good time being a tourist of my own country. last term ended on a really hectic note. even till the very last paper, I was cramming and fighting with lack of sleep that compounded the stress. yet, after the exams, I had to run another race to prepare for concamp ( Read more... )

the human heart is a crazy thing;
it aches to ache like it yearns to love,
like it fears to be broken.

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this is soooo... 1999. LOL.

someday, I'll be the wife tt bakes cakes like this:


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today was fruitful: gave ttn in the morning, then I met up with jer to pay sch fees and checked for next sem's tbs. afterwhich, we headed down to borders to read and talk.

coffee at borders bistro sucks. they remade my coffee and it still sucked. reading with bad coffee is not worth a good day. I reckon even my 3-in-1 satchet brews better coffee. : ( Read more... )

as I drifted off to sleep, I saw faces of people who are troubled... with drugs and etc (tt I cannot rmb). it felt like they wanted me to pray for them. then I saw a spirit hovering over me. but my eyes were closed. I was aslp. so it must've been a dream. so in my sleep, I prayed the hail mary and the lord's prayer... but it didnt go away. and I ( Read more... )

jolted awake at 8.45AM, thinking tt I might have missed my tuition. but thank God for my mummy who kicks a fuss when my mobile gets tired of snoozing. doudou made an effort to finish all the work I spammed her yest and I am impressed. I hope she's learned smth this hols. speaking of which, the hols are cmg to an end, soon. its been a busy long hol ( Read more... )

and all of a sudden, praying about it seems like the scariest thing to do. and all around me, the voices are telling me tt I cant run. I might just meet a carcrash... soon ( Read more... )

when you're at your prime, all you think abt is yourself. and it feels like you'll nvr be ready for a child.

and I kinda like the way it is.

as I spoke abt you, you began to slip away,
now a distant muse.
sometimes I wish it nvr happened.
if only we left it at 13 -
then we'd have an unfinished story to tell
rather than a horrifying reality bite.
what ifs will nvr come true. while, like hoping, is no use.
I love now. 
let's not talk abt forever;
stranger than a stranger.
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I just realise how ( Read more... )