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[gemkazoni]

Post anything you like here, but post it anonymously. It can be something big or small, whatever you feel compelled to. Maybe a (1) story, (2) secret, (3) confession, (4) fear, (5) love-the possibilities are endless. Be sure to comment anonymously, though.I am feeling a little sick and a little sad right now for no reason in particular. -___-;; I'

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[anonymous]

Guys. Would do I ever decide I like one?

It feels like I'm being stupid, like I shouldn't let this kind of thing affect me. It's like an after school special. Still, I've become friends with a great guy at school. He's funny, he's smart, and he isn't bad looking or socially inept either. Whenever I'm with him, I enjoy his company. During breaks between classes, however, he seems five times more interested in another girl. He's more playful, optimistic, and flirtatious around her, and she doesn't act different around him at all. Often times I think she doesn't like him in that way, but they're such good friends. When I look at her, I know she doesn't love him like I hopelessly do, but I know her. If his attitude towards her becomes more flirtatious, then she'll date him for the sake of it being something new and possibly endearing, but mostly for the "new" part

[gemkazoni]

Oh man, once again, I can relate to this all too well. It feels like every guy I have ever liked has always been friendly to me, but has also vastly preferred the company of somebody else who is nowhere near as interested in him as I am. ;___;

I know how hard it must be to keep such feelings locked inside. You definitely aren't too faulted to be liked! The only advice I can really offer in this situation is to just wait and see what happens. Are you close friends with the twin sister? If he and her are close, maybe she can try and figure out his feelings for you? I suppose the ideal situation would be to figure out how he feels without actually having to tell him yourself. If that's not possible, though --- hmm. If you just can't stand the possibility of never knowing, then you may have bite the bullet and ask -- I doubt he would hate you, though it may make things a tad uncomfortable. Trust me, I speak from experience. o__o;; If you just can't, then just try to enjoy being near him; get to know him better, share in his interests,

[anonymous]

I'm confused on what I want to do with my life actually. I'm only 21 and can't figure out what I want to do. Is it strange?

[gemkazoni]

I don't think that's strange. :) You just haven't discovered your calling yet, and there's nothing wrong with that. Just keep your eyes open, and explore possibilities as much as posible. Do you have any hobbies? Is there a subject in school you really enjoyed? Keep looking until you find something that makes you happy. :DDD

[anonymous]

I want equality for everyone so badly, but I always feel like an idiot when I don't know how to defend myself. even worse, I'll always have the feeling that my dad is really disappointed in me for going to PRIDE meetings. I'm not gay, just supportive, but still...He doesn't ever have to explain why he is a remarried white catholic male, so why should I have to explain why I am a white female who is supporting equal rights?

(Feel free to disagree with me)

[gemkazoni]

Oh no, I definitely agree with you! I'm exactly the same way -- as in, I'm supportive, even though I'm not gay -- and my mother just doesn't agree. :(

I'm sorry that you think your dad is disappointed, but you definitely shouldn't feel as though you have to explain anything! You believe what you believe, and there's absolutely nothing wrong with that. :D

[anonymous]

Parents can be basically useless sometimes :C
It just kinda hit me how much he affects me, because when we all went out to a library recently, I didn't rent Rocky Horror Picture Show because I didn't want to start anything with him...and that kinda bites.

[anonymous]

My boyfriend told me he wants to marry me. :( He said that I'm the woman he wants to spend the rest of his life with, and he said that we're made for each other. And he "knows" that

[gemkazoni]

Oh man. :(

This is really tricky situation. But I can totally understand not feeling ready to get married at 19. I'm nineteen and the thought of getting married now terrifies me. Have you told him how you feel about this? That you're just not ready? He should understand and be willing to wait if he really loves you. <33

I'm really not seeing what the hurry for him is, but he's already proposing, than he must really care about you deeply and truly, and know that he wants to be with you, despite any problems you may have. Your reasoning in the last two paragraphs kind of worries me, though, because to think that you're not worth marriage is sad. :( This guy seems to truly care for you, to want to spend the rest of his life with you! If he didn't want to "deal with you", hon, then I'm sure he would have jumped ship long ago. :DDD

[anonymous]

Last night, my best friend and I got so bored that we decided making out would be the only thing actually eventful to do. But the creepy thing is, we're both girls, we've known each other for about 7 years and I actually enjoyed every moment of it.

My only fear now is, will she ever kiss me like that again?

[gemkazoni]

...I'm not entirely sure what to say about this one. XD; That's great if you enjoyed it, I mean. :DDD Were you guys just reallyreallyreally bored or was there some kind of pent-up tension there?

I suppose all I can say is to just see if your relationship changes at all from this point and just...roll with it. XD;

Wow, this response of mine failed pretty hardcore, didn't it? XD; Sorry!