Time

[gemma_c]

Today I have time. Even though I have lots to do it seems like I have time. I has been ages since I felt like that. Its funny how things change. And other things stay the same. I think its strange how things are changing all the time but most don't notice, or find it easier to ignore. It is easier to dismiss change and be taken along with the flow

Comments

[natsu517]

I stops sentences in the middle. All the time. I start and then realise I don't really know what I'm saying, or can't be arsed to make the effort needed to actually finish the thought. It's becoming a serious problem. I do it in French too. And you do have a creative flair. You do art, don't you? You have to be creative in at least some small measure for that, right? And I think that anyone who can appreciate art of any kind (literature, music, whatever...) for the feelings it evokes and the thoughts it inspires must have some creativity. If you can believe there's some magic in the world somewhere then I think you must have a little of that flair. That's what I reckon anyway. Not that that stands for much.

I think I make myself out to be more creative than I am. I think I am but really I'm not. Ugh, I'll never amount to anything...Bummer.

Rant

[gemma_c]

Don't you always want to be special though? To be a little different sometimes. To have people notice you the way I notice other people and admire them? I think everyone has to believe that about themselves, be a little arrogant. You only really know yourself I suppose, and whats the point if you just think 'I'm just the same as everyone else'. Everyone must be different. The whole unique thing. Its a horrible thing when you realise you aren't going to save the world or paint a masterpiece and the odds are stacked against you. And you have to make your new goal being the best person you can be

Re: Rant

[natsu517]

I think that the best thing about going away to uni will be the fact that your image isn't going to follow you. I think everyone has these illusions of grandeur about themselves...but you're right that everyone needs to believe it. You need to believe that the world revolves around you sometimes. And maybe it's naive, but I still believe that I can be something special if I try hard enough.

I guess when it comes down to it, we are all the same, and none of us really matter, but at least you will always be something to someone. No matter how good or bad you are at stuff or what anyone else thinks of you, you have an impact on the people you know and especially the people who care about you, and the impact you have will probably stay with them. I believe that stands for something. But then, I think that maybe I believe in too much.

Mmm...I'm not really very good at being deep or haveing meaningful conversations either, apparently. So at least that makes two of us.