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gemma_c

Coming home

Sep 04, 2002 18:56

Wrote this to post yesterday but my computer was being a bitch and wouldn't let me online. Since then I have been to my first day at school. It was fun and sad at the same time - the last first day of term. Weird with all the new people and stuff. Different. Still don't know what subject to drop. Think I'm convinced it has driven me crazy because I ( Read more... )

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natsu517 September 4 2002, 13:50:57 UTC

I think I need to live by somebody else's judgement. Mine isn't too hot. And it's your choice but...try not to do five. You know you'll end up regretting it.

Sorry... ex_wavelengt207 September 5 2002, 17:12:42 UTC

But I'm afraid I'm gonna have to second this. We all know you can achieve great things, and no doubt you will, but even attempting five really is pointless. You may not know which of the subjects you want to give up, and that's fine, but a University is likely to only consider only three of these. Having four nowadays is plenty enough and if you can get the 4 good grades we all expect of you, then you can do anything you want to do. What you don't want to do is to try taking too much on at once. You'll only end up doing yourself harm, and this is the kind of hurt that will really sting.

So, please, reconsider. We say this as friends who care. We all believe in you, but we don't want you to get hurt.

Re: Sorry... gemma_c September 9 2002, 12:23:29 UTC

Yeah I know. I wasn't being serious. Well, not really serious. I guess I was partly rebelling against Mrs Ash and her advice but also influenced by my inherent desire to do everything the best I can. I think that its is built in to who I am. If there is a way of doing it all then I want to do it that way. No matter the consequence. I can see it myself, I'm sure you can. Not something I particularly approve of in my personality but I think I'm stuck with it.

Thankyou for caring though. It means a lot.

Every way I think of doing things people will be disappointed. Even if I didn't mind what people thought then a part of me would be disappointed. There is a section of my character that thrives on each subject. It feels like killing off that part to deny it that opportunity to prove itself. That make sense? Don't think it does.

Making sense. ex_wavelengt207 September 24 2002, 14:50:42 UTC

Sorry it took me so long to get back to this, but I haven't really been around. Now I am I can reply.

I understand exactly what it means to want to do everything the best you can, and how what you do becomes you. So much so that to stop doing it would be killing part of you off, irreplacably. I don't think there's anybody who doesn't want to make the best of their abilities. I feel I've been cheated out of a lot, but there does come a time when you've got to move on and away from these things so you can progress further in other things ( ... )