thursday= day spent with logan ( Read more... )

DELAY
THE RADIANCE OF THAT STAR THAT LEANS ON ME
WAS SHINING YEARS AGO. THE LIGHT THAT NOW
GLITTERS UP THERE MY EYE MAY NEVER SEE
AND SO THE TIME LAG TEASES ME WITH HOW

LOVE THAT LOVES NOW MAY NOT REACH ME UNTIL
ITS FIRST DESIRE IS SPENT. THE STAR'S IMPULSE
MUST WAIT FOR EYES TO CLAIM IT BEAUTIFUL
AND LOVE ARRIVED MAY FIND US SOMEWHERE ELSE

today was throw everything away day at the gap.my arms are killing me from lifting boxes and shelves and pushing and pulling carts and then tossing all the metal, boxes, fixtures,body forms, shelves into a dumpster. i got my work out for today though. i also got eaten by the trash compactor because i am a fat ass and when i jumped on the cardboard ( Read more... )

I find myself again ( Read more... )

so the burlington gap is officially closed, no more work for me there but supposedly i am going to the moorestown mall so i did a dry run tonight to make sure i had enough time to get there, yes i'm a dork, i know this. i don't think i'm going to like it much but i'll give it a try. i went to visit the girls saturday night which was fun and this ( Read more... )

so at lunch my mom and i were talking about what's going on and last night before i left she was telling mark how she got offered a job in california and today that was our topic of conversation. she reassured me it most likely won't happen but it she is thinking in depth a little more and told me to look at schools there. so that's that for the ( Read more... )

so i am extremely upset by the way things are turning out. mark got laid off this past week, which is never good. then yesterday my mom tells me they are closing the mt. laurel branch of mattel so my mom is losing her job. she didn't know when it was going to happen. so i really didn't want to be here last night as they talked about everything but ( Read more... )

FALLING FROM GRACE

i have been really trying to keep my cool and not really give a damn just be happy that we still see each other, but i didn't last very long. i promised myself i would not get upset. i'm tired of feeling like i don't matter to him. i feel like i have lost one of my closest friends. we could talk about anything to each other whenever, where ever and ( Read more... )

today i have to go to a wedding. did you know that they have a 50/50 chance of staying together. it's like tossing a coin up in the air at the ceremony and seeing if it lands on heads or tail and if your parents are divorced you have a lesser chance of even making it. its sad how many couples get divorced. i don't want that to happen to me ( Read more... )