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Once in a house on a hill a boy got angry. He broke into my heart. For a day and a night, I stayed beside him! Until I had no hope. So I came down the hill, of course I was hurt, but then I started to think it shouldnt hurt me to be free its what I really need to pull myself together but if its so good being free what you were tellin me why I dont know what to do with myself theres a park by the dock where I found myself drinking with this man he offered me a ciggerette and I accepted its been very long time. As it burn till the end I thought of the boy noone could ever forget it shouldnt
1. "If were fucked up, your to blame."
2. "People say im a bad influence I say im just adding to it
3. "Stay together for the kids "
Its hard to wake up when the shades have been pulled shut this house is haunted its so pathetic it makes no sense at all, what stupid poem could fix this home, i'd read it every day so here's your holiday hope you enjoy it this time we gave it all away it was mine so when your dead and gone will you remember this night 20 years now lost it's not right there anger hurts my ears been runnin' strong for seven years rather then fix the problems they never solve them it makes no sense at all. its not right its not right!!!
Sometimes I wish I was brave I wish I was stronger I wish I could feel no pain I wish I was young I wish I was shy I wish I was honest I wish I was you not I cuz I feel so mad I feel so angry, feel so callant so lost confused, feel so cheap so used unfaithful Lets start over Lets start over sometimes I wish I was smart I wish I made cures for how people are I wish I had power I wish I could lead I wish I could change the world for you and me
Caught offguard, all worked up, the air is as dark and cold as night. Let me go, I'm not done I swear I'll take just one lifetime and I, I won't lie I won't sin maybe I don't wanna go. Can't you wait? Maybe I don t wanna go! I should've asked, I could've helped atleast a fuckin thousand times before will this offer get me in or does this proove that they gave more.
This vacations useless these white pills aren't kind I've given alot of thought on this 13 hour drive I miss the grinded concrete were sat past 8 or 9 and slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights. I've given alot of thought to the nights we used to have the days have come and gone our lives went by so fast. I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor where I laid and told you but you swore you loved me more Do you care if I don't know what to say will you sleep tonight or will you think of me THERE IS. Those notes you wrote me, I've kept them all I've given alot of thought of how to write you back this fall. With every single letter in every single word there will be a hidden message about a boy that loves a girl Will I shake this off pretend it's all okay? That there's someone out there who feels just like me?
Restless tonight cuz i've wasted the light between both these times i drew a really thin line it's nothing i'd planned not that I can but you should be mine across the line if I traded it all if I gave it all away for one thing. Just for one thing. if I sorted it out if I knew all about this one thing wouldn't that be something? I promised I might not walk on by. Maybe next time, but not this time. Even though I know, I don't wanna know, yeah I guess i know I just hate how it sounds.
I watch how the moon sits in the sky on a dark night shining with the light from the sun and the sun doesn't give the light to the moon assuming the moons gonna owe it one it makes me think of how you act to me you do favors that rapidly.....Im sick of the tension sick of the hunger sick of you acting like I owe you this find another place to feed your greed while I find a place to rest I wanna be in another place I hate when you say you don't understand I wanna be in the energy not with the enemy a place for my hand.. Maybe some day i'll be just like you and step on people like you do run away all the people I thought I knew I remember back then who you were you used to be strong you used to be calm you used to be generous you shoulda known that you wear out your welcome and now you see how quiet it is to be all alone. You, try to take the best of me GO AWAY. I wanna be in another place I hate when you say you don't understand I want to be in the energy not with the enemy a place for my hand
To my mother to my father it's your son or it's your daughter. Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me should I turn this up for you? I sit here locked inside my head remembering everything you said the silence gets us nowhere gets us nowhere way too fast. The silence is what kills me, I need someone here to help me. But you don't know how to listen, and let me make my decisions. All your insults and your curses make me feel like i'm not a person. And I feel like I am nothing but you make me so do something cuz i'm fucked up because you are need attention attention you couldn't give.
I just need this to be alright I can't feel this another night I cant take this I come unglued I might break down in front of you necessery to medicate Im not sleeping can't stay awake can't see through this too much pressure drowning in this too much pressure if you need me ill be here if im conscious escape my fear I cant take this!!!!
How dead its dark well I don't know I just feel the craving, I see the flesh and it smells fresh and its just there for the taking these mental girls they make me feel so god damn exhilarted i feel them up I can't give it up the pain im just erasing i tell my lies and I despise every second im with you so I run away and you still stay so what the fuck is with you your feelings I can't help but rape them im sorry I don't feel the same my heart inside is constantly hating im sorry I just throw you away. I don't know why i'm so fuckin' cold I don't know why it hurts me all I wanna do is get with you and make the pain go away why do I have a conscience all it does is fuck with me why do I have this torment all I wanna do is fuck it away Your feelings I can't help but rape them im sorry I dont feel the same my heart inside is constantly hating im sorry I just throw you away.
When passions lost, and all the trust is gone way too far for way too long children crying cast out and neglected only in a world so cold only in a world this cold. Hold the hand of your best friend. Looking to there eyes them watch them drift away some might say we've done the wrong things for way too long for way too long. Burning whispers remind of the days I was left alone. In a world this cold.
Hope dangles on a string. like slow spinning redemption winding in and winding out the shine of it has caught my eye and roped me in so mesmerizing so captiviting so hypnotizing I am vindicated I am selfish I am wrong I am right I swear im right swear I knew it all along and I am fine but I am cleaning up so well I am seeing in me now the things you swore youurself so clear like the diamond in your ring cut to your mirror your intention oversized and overwhelmed.
Im seein red don't think you'll have to see my face again. Don't have much time for sympathy. Cuz it never happened to me. Your feeling blue now. I think you bit off more than you could chew and now its time to make a choice and all I wanna hear is your voice. So follow, the leader now, just sllow, your pride and joy when theres no place left to go maybe thats when you will know follow the leader down and swollow your pride and joy when theres no place left to go maybe thats when you will know. What you say aint always true. And I can see the tears in your eyes. And what you said now can't stop the words from running through my head and what i'd do to get through to you. But youd only do it again!
I hear a voice saydon't be so blind its telling me all these things that you would probably hide am I your one and only desire am I the reason you bleed or am I reason you cry always always always.. I just can't live without you I love you I hate you I can't get around you I breathe you I taste you Can't live without you I just can't take anymore this life of solitude I guess that im out the door and now im done with you. I feel like you don't want me around I guess i'll pack all my things I guess I'll see you around its all been bottled up until now as I walk out your door all I can hear is the sound of always!
This is where I say i've had enough and noone should ever feel the way that I feel now. Walking open wound a trophy display of bruises and I don't believe that I'm getting any better, any better. Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring and im thinking awful things pretty sure that if youd notice and this apartment is starving for an argument anything at all to break the silence wandering this house like i never wanted out and this is as social as i get now and Im throwing away the letters that I am writing you cuz they will never do never well im not laughing your not leaving well who do I think I am kidding when Im the only one locked in this whole..