okay

[georgesaki]

I am doing better. But just as a little warning to everyone out there I care about and that reads this. Do NOT bring up Josh, Ben, Chris or anyone like that around me. If I bring it up I guess it is okay... but unless you want me to blow up and you and start screaming and cussing and stuff dont be like, "It really is a shame it didn't work out with

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[autumnsflames]

ill just stay away then, if im a cause to pain, dont.

no

[georgesaki]

no please dont... that really isn't what I wanted at all. I just... I want some time to not think about how much I screwed up with you. I messed up and I lost you and just... god. It hurt a lot. But every break up hurts. I did and still do care about you. It is just hard to think, "I had a chance with him then messed up..." and I hate it and I hate myself for it. But the fact is when you are around I dont usually think of that. I just think that I do have time with you and that I should make the best of it... I love being with you. You make me smile and you make me happy. I do want to hang out with you so bad... it has been so long sense I got a hug from you I miss it. lol... So I do want to hang out with you really.

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[autumnsflames]

Graham, i want you to stop blaming what happened between us on you, now. its pissing me off, because it wasnt because of you.

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[georgesaki]

I dont see anyone else to blame it on. And it was fucking cause of me. A blind man could see that without help from his dog. I can see stuff like that. I know stuff that got to you... you got all worried cause I was always being shitty and emo. You got so upset cause I was all winy baby bitchy over you smoking at Josh's party. I mean jesus christ was I sad... and I dont even mean like boo hoo I mean I was fucking pittiful. I am a big boy I can take dissapointment. Having every relationship you have ever been in start with you asking them out and end with you getting dumped tends to build up your immunity to heart-ache. I can take it now. I wasn't so hot with it before but I can hide what I cant get over damn well now thanks. You dont have to pussy foot around poor little Graham so as not to upset him and make him cry anymore. It is okay I know I can be annoying I know I can be a pain in the ass, and just an ass in general. I have gotten so much help from Ashley and you and everyone. And here I am practically yelling at you which you