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Okay... I know I dont have a say in it. It's their life... I have NO control over it. Especially when you consider who it is. And I think I am over it and all. But I feel like I am losing part of them this way. I just... I dont want to think of them that way anymore but I dont want to think of them as never possibly being like that. It just... I don't know it is so confusing. I hate it. I hate that I am thinking about it and hate it this much. It pisses me off! I wanna put my head through a wall to make myself stop thinking about it. God I just... I can barely take it. I want us to be friends SO bad I really do. But I have to be okay with what they are doing. I just... I really wanna reach out to them and tell them to not do it... but that would be selfish, unfair and pointless. I dont expect it to change anything, it wouldn't matter really if they stayed the way they were... I just... I dont want them to change more than they already have. It hurts. Thats all.
See I told you it was for me. I wrote it so I know what I was talking about and who I was talking about but not you! ^^