Musings

[georgetheflea]

Currently playing: Parachute from the album "Parachute" by Guster
Behind the cut is a bit of musing that I wrote today originally just for the sake of writing it, but seems like something worth sharing

Comments

[laurdragon]

Poor Yan. I know what you mean.

[georgetheflea]

Actually, I am learning things that I want to know. Every single class that I have this semester is one that I really wanted to take. But the thing is that even though I'm learning about the things that I'm passionate about, the way that everything is set up, with mounds of reading and not being allowed to just discover the things that I want at my own pace and so forth, discourages actual learning. Reading becomes an onerous task, and the actual learning that I do is scattered in bits and pieces. I can't interact with the authors and the ideas they represent in a way which is psychologically healthy and leads to my having fun learning; instead I grind through the material, sit through class, and very, very rarely find myself excitedly engaging an idea (often on my walk home, one of the few times that I have to just think and talk to myself

[georgetheflea]

I feel like you are reading into my bit of musing way too much. Granted, it reflects a fairly big discontent with my life and disillusionment with the American education system, but on the other hand I'm honestly not as stressed about it as you seem to think I am. All four classes this semester are ones that I was excited to be able to take, some of them ones I've been waiting for a year or more to take. As compared to last semester, in which I had one class (astronomy) that wasn't an utter waste of my time, this semester is about as good as it gets.

I was just musing about the way that I feel I've had the wonder of learning squashed out of me. It's like if I mused about any other thing which truly irked me (thanks to sociology, there's quite a few); these things don't keep me up at night, but they bug me and every once in a while I have to vent. I just happened to share the vent this time. :-)

[stealthyshelby]

You are such a writer.
I know just how you feel about the wonder. I remember struggling with that in highschool at moments when I felt like I had found it again. It hasn't changed.
I'm bummed that I won't get to see your dance performace this semester. It sounds like Linzee is being more intense than ever.

[georgetheflea]

Linzee is crazy this semester. I hurt badly right now, and have to deal with feeling emotionally low, too, because I don't learn dances very quickly. She tells me that I'm quite a good dancer once I get a handle on things, but when first learning dances (like every practice recently) I don't have a handle on things because she goes too fast, so I feel like crap as well as being beaten black and blue. Fah!

But enough complaining. Hope you're having fun in Italy!