i apologize in advance for the rediculously long entry

[gerkins]

i realize that lj is such an addiction for me. i try to rid myself of it but when i do i get really anxious. lately ive been feeling extremely anxious and kinda confused. it pisses me off that sometimes i cant feel better by just saying to myself "everythings great just be happy and carefree". after all, i do aspire to be carefree. but the thing is

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[sugarflower]

it's a lot harder to be carefree when you're trying to be. if you just be yourself, you'll end up being much less worried.

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[gerkins]

i guess my mood changes with the season. im a lot more carefree in the spring and summer. if that makes any sense.

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[sugarflower]

no it makes total sense. i get really really depressed in the winter and so do a lot of people. it's because in the winter you just stay inside and don't do anything but in the summer you're out doing stuff.