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[gesserit_mox]

I must admit, I’m feeling a little repellent today. Despite seeming warm and cheerful I seem to be bothering even the repugnance that is this society. It causes me to wonder exactly what about me is so off putting. Something(s) about me seem to irritate or antagonize the people that I interact with to the point that they are so turned off by me

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[mskitty23]

I wish I had the perfect things to say to make you know how wonderful you are. To make you know how valuable you are and how much you are loved and by how many people.
I know however, that even if I say it, it doesn't make those feelings go away. I know it's just words spoken at you from another mouth - they sound like platitudes and that isn't what you need to hear. And quite frankly, I don't want to offer those.

Know this - I love you, and I value you as my friend, you are very dear to me. In the short time I have known you I have come to value you very much. I can't wait to have you in my day to day life.

I know it's not much, but I mean every single letter of it.

[gesserit_mox]

Thank you Em. Life is slowly getting easier to stomach, it's getting easier to walk out the front door and I'm happier for the success and love that the people around me have found. In the mean time, life is only what I make of it and the record to date is that I haven't made much of it other than angry, whiny, drunken pissyness. It's worked out quite nicely for when I'm not in the mood to be around paople but for the part of me that's lonely, it's not working out so well.
My dear Emily, I love you too. I'm so glad to know you, honored to call you a friend and excited to have you as a local! MArch can't come fast enough but when it does we are going to celebrate the hell out of it!