It's not that I feel nothing... I just don't really fear anything anymore. For example, I still feel love for those I care about and joy when we spend time together, but I don't really worry about them dying or anything, because I've just had so much of that in my life already. The one person I feared of dying the most (my dad) did, and somehow I'm still here living and breathing. My grandmother has cancer, my mom tried to take her own life... I mean at this point, what is there to fear?

I'm so sorry for your lose. You sound like a very brave individual :) I hope your mother learns from your example and learn to move on and live. Life is hard, and often heartbreaking, I get why she'd try to end it, but suicide is an act of selfishness, she should know by now that you need her to live.

I'll pray for your grandmother :) bless you and your family :)