Fanfiction: Covered Glance
Tittle: Covered glance
Length: two-shot part 2/2
Genre: General, fluff
Pairing: Jaemin
Summary: A boy feeling insecure.
Disclaimer: DO not own boys.
Warning: I don't think there's any....
A/N: Jaejoong's POV. Tried to write in lighter mood, fluffy ending...but I think it's baaaad! xD I hope it will live up to expectations.
Everyone new you’ve always been nice and affectionate to those close to you.
Always saying yes, finding time, if someone wanted to talk to you and opening your arms for needed free hugs and comfort.
But it was different with one young boy. It became sort of a habit - always touching hugging even kissing.
At the end it seemed like you needed this as much as him. He was the only one who could return your affection just as strongly.
You couldn’t deny the attraction you felt for him. You both couldn’t deny the need for touch from each other. You didn’t even have to explain those things happening between you, you knew the meaning but the problem is both of you were too scared to confirm.
You don’t remember when and where that was but you know you have already admitted your feelings. Your life experience toughening you up, making you settle your thoughts, teaching how to not spend time thinking uselessly.
Being older you always wanted to be the one who will let him experience something real not you company ordered. Everyone knows about so called fan-service, faking affectionate words and touches, for girls to dream about your nonexistent sexual relations.
You wanted him to know how different it was from the real life experience, but what are you thinking about - this is first time you feel such strong attraction to a man.
You’re afraid you’ll somehow ruin possibilities of you being together. Officially being together. Even if you’re over each other almost every freakin’ time of the day or night, these actions lack something. It lacks safety, knowledge that one of you won’t suddenly run of scared.
You admit it - it hurts when he denies everything and says all those things. Yeah, you know your job, society surrounding you, eyes following you everywhere makes him (and you) do it. Probably even if you weren’t this famous it would be hard for him, being the good, properly raises boy from a family with good reputation.
But for this being wrong it feels too good right.
Suddenly one day he started to avoid you like some disease. You knew it was stupid but you couldn’t help yourself but think that somehow you scared him off. That maybe you were too much for his young inexperienced mind. Your imagination was running wild with possibilities.
These few week you found yourself thinking - was it selfish to keep it to yourself and not tell him know for all this time? Was it selfish to be scared of being left without his warmth? You knew you’re over thinking, but whatever. It’s about him and you’re not going to stop!
It was one of those times, when you heard knock on the doors. Even before you could answer he was pushed in you room by Yunho. Before he closed the doors he gave you a meaningful smile (What a good friend he really is).
You want to laugh hearing his apologetic mumbling. Even thought you understood maybe two words (and few curse ones) you knew he means it.
Pulling him to your bed and making yourself comfortable in his arms you now think - how much you missed this. Your heart’s beating like you’re doing this for the first time again after admitting your feelings.
Suddenly you feel him becoming tense, like startled and you finally feel his heart. Beating as fast and strong as yours.
When you look up to ask if he’s ok, he’s looking back at you (more like in you), trying to find answers something.
“Are you Ok, Min?” He doesn’t answer for some time and then just shakes his head lightly. You put your head back again and snuggle settling in his lap.
Suddenly between shuffling of bed linens you hear something.
“I love you.”
Words that make your heart for a moment stop together with your movements.
You sit there thinking maybe you just overheard something.
“Min?”
“Yes, Jaejoong?” Can’t be true. He sounds too normal.
You just shake your head and lay your head down again puling blanket over both of you.
“Love you.”
Again! This time you ignore it. Maybe really your imagination is trying to fool you.
“Lov-” You turn your head sharply to Changmin catching him in time. He just tilts his head to side acting confused. You narrow you eyes looking at him.
Corner of his mouth twitches, trying not to show his smile and you can’t help but punch his shoulder, making you both laugh loudly.
Finally. You were not hearing things! It's true!
You are just too happy now (slapping his fore-arm while laughing till he pulls you back to him with a gentle force).
“Idiot,” you say pecking his collarbone.
“Lo-”
“Love you too, Min.”
THE END.
~*~
Ahhh....the cheezines!! OMG I thought I will strangle my dog plushy while rereading it! 8D
Length: two-shot part 2/2
Genre: General, fluff
Pairing: Jaemin
Summary: A boy feeling insecure.
Disclaimer: DO not own boys.
Warning: I don't think there's any....
A/N: Jaejoong's POV. Tried to write in lighter mood, fluffy ending...but I think it's baaaad! xD I hope it will live up to expectations.
Everyone new you’ve always been nice and affectionate to those close to you.
Always saying yes, finding time, if someone wanted to talk to you and opening your arms for needed free hugs and comfort.
But it was different with one young boy. It became sort of a habit - always touching hugging even kissing.
At the end it seemed like you needed this as much as him. He was the only one who could return your affection just as strongly.
You couldn’t deny the attraction you felt for him. You both couldn’t deny the need for touch from each other. You didn’t even have to explain those things happening between you, you knew the meaning but the problem is both of you were too scared to confirm.
You don’t remember when and where that was but you know you have already admitted your feelings. Your life experience toughening you up, making you settle your thoughts, teaching how to not spend time thinking uselessly.
Being older you always wanted to be the one who will let him experience something real not you company ordered. Everyone knows about so called fan-service, faking affectionate words and touches, for girls to dream about your nonexistent sexual relations.
You wanted him to know how different it was from the real life experience, but what are you thinking about - this is first time you feel such strong attraction to a man.
You’re afraid you’ll somehow ruin possibilities of you being together. Officially being together. Even if you’re over each other almost every freakin’ time of the day or night, these actions lack something. It lacks safety, knowledge that one of you won’t suddenly run of scared.
You admit it - it hurts when he denies everything and says all those things. Yeah, you know your job, society surrounding you, eyes following you everywhere makes him (and you) do it. Probably even if you weren’t this famous it would be hard for him, being the good, properly raises boy from a family with good reputation.
But for this being wrong it feels too good right.
Suddenly one day he started to avoid you like some disease. You knew it was stupid but you couldn’t help yourself but think that somehow you scared him off. That maybe you were too much for his young inexperienced mind. Your imagination was running wild with possibilities.
These few week you found yourself thinking - was it selfish to keep it to yourself and not tell him know for all this time? Was it selfish to be scared of being left without his warmth? You knew you’re over thinking, but whatever. It’s about him and you’re not going to stop!
It was one of those times, when you heard knock on the doors. Even before you could answer he was pushed in you room by Yunho. Before he closed the doors he gave you a meaningful smile (What a good friend he really is).
You want to laugh hearing his apologetic mumbling. Even thought you understood maybe two words (and few curse ones) you knew he means it.
Pulling him to your bed and making yourself comfortable in his arms you now think - how much you missed this. Your heart’s beating like you’re doing this for the first time again after admitting your feelings.
Suddenly you feel him becoming tense, like startled and you finally feel his heart. Beating as fast and strong as yours.
When you look up to ask if he’s ok, he’s looking back at you (more like in you), trying to find answers something.
“Are you Ok, Min?” He doesn’t answer for some time and then just shakes his head lightly. You put your head back again and snuggle settling in his lap.
Suddenly between shuffling of bed linens you hear something.
“I love you.”
Words that make your heart for a moment stop together with your movements.
You sit there thinking maybe you just overheard something.
“Min?”
“Yes, Jaejoong?” Can’t be true. He sounds too normal.
You just shake your head and lay your head down again puling blanket over both of you.
“Love you.”
Again! This time you ignore it. Maybe really your imagination is trying to fool you.
“Lov-” You turn your head sharply to Changmin catching him in time. He just tilts his head to side acting confused. You narrow you eyes looking at him.
Corner of his mouth twitches, trying not to show his smile and you can’t help but punch his shoulder, making you both laugh loudly.
Finally. You were not hearing things! It's true!
You are just too happy now (slapping his fore-arm while laughing till he pulls you back to him with a gentle force).
“Idiot,” you say pecking his collarbone.
“Lo-”
“Love you too, Min.”
THE END.
~*~
Ahhh....the cheezines!! OMG I thought I will strangle my dog plushy while rereading it! 8D