I have begun full time at the clinic and it rocks. I love what I do. I love the rush, the emotional highs and lows and the resolution from both. It is all about adrenaline getting me through...until i get used to it and I no longer find it completely exhausting. The woman I am replacing seems to be slow to train me or at least has a different ( Read more... )

I'm home. I'm bored...I'm disappointed. But, what the hell did I expect? That just because I have made many changes in the last 6 months and have tried to change the way I look at the world, that I would be able to maintain that in family that hasn't changed their communication patterns in 2 decades? This was probably true even though I know better ( Read more... )

Everything is not wonderful. Everything is not fine. But I am happy. Life just is, and I am satisifed with that. Sure I am not graduating until the end of the summer, and sure I am still dealing with a billing claim from freakin September and it is surely screwing up my credit. But, graduation is in sight, I have a beautiful IUD and last but not ( Read more... )

That's right folks, I have a job. I am the job. I did not pass out during surgery...I waited until after like a good little worker. However, peanut butter came to my rescue! I start Friday and that...is it. I am set for a couple of years. No more worrying about what's next (immediately). Oh, I am quitting philosophy and taking the hit. I will ( Read more... )

Hell-o. So the IUD is in me. Twisting my insides. Causing cramps that most women only experience in childbirth. My abdomen, uterus, back and legs are all cramping. I got the worst possible scenario with the cramping. It is called labor cramping. However, the fact that I am cramping probably means that since it was put in, it hasn't fallen out. :-) ( Read more... )

Game is on biotches! I am getting my IUD tomorrow. My insurance is covering it. IF they don't, the guest member service people are overriding it. Bizatches all of them. I can't even begin to say just how amazingly difficult setting this all up. But it wont matter after tomorrow. Which by the way, I am extremely nervous. I am supposed to take 4 ( Read more... )

I am in this state of confusion and anxiety and stress...not abou anything in particular, just in general. Well, maybe more because of all the impending changes that will be occurring soon in my life. Doubts about myself and my abilities are cropping up in my sub-conscious, while my conscious self is obliviously optimistic. In a way, I do feel ( Read more... )

So I was watching one of my favorite ridiculous movies, Exit to Eden with Rosie O'Donnell, and then realized that it actually spoke to my inability to be intimate and generally avoidant relationship style. For those who don't know the movie, the premise of the movie is a crime mystery that leads 2 cops to a BDSM island. The Mistress in charge ( Read more... )

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Damn those kittens! Kept me up all damn night. Knocked over alot of stuff...my apartment didn't look too bad until now. Damn them ( Read more... )