i haven't really done a lot with this blog lately. i think it will become friends only. i'm still debating to switch to blogspot, where my podcasts reside, but i'm still not sure. but i think i am going to change the outlook of this blog, as my character is changing. i have been thinking a lot lately. thinking about life ideas. and i'm going to make this blog more mature and more towards my changes as a person.
lately it only seems like i am on a spiritual high on sundays. and i want that to change. i want how i am perceived to change. i want my character to change for the better. i want to take a stand for who i am and what i believe in. i am sick of my beliefs getting walked all over. i'm done being someone i'm not.
i am me.
i hope everyone can accept these changes. they will be for the better, i promise.
I'll tell you flat out
it hurts so much to think of this
so from my thoughts I will exclude
this very thing that
I hate more than everything is
the way I'm powerless
to dictate my own moods
I've thrown away
so many things that could've been much more
and I just pray
my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's not the way it works
when I go down
I go down hard
and I take everything I've learned
and teach myself some disregard
when I go down
it hurts to hit the bottom
and of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them
If and when I can
clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
into a place where
peace can search me out and find
that I'm so ready to be found