Paper Journal: Director's Cut

[ghostlight]

I had a nightmare today - the memory of what exactly is hazy, but I awoke feeling more alone than I have before

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[ghostlight]

Hedging my bets for the future I intentionally fixed that at 16.

[kalika]

Kitten. I haven't really had any idea what has been the go with you for awhile now, but I'm sorry to hear all of this. I hope the reality is less literary, and more ok.

[ghostlight]

I haven't either. Twilight on the moors; I have lived inside of myself for survival for so long that everything I need to express is inchoate.

I did cut a few semi-nice paragraphs, and mention of a girl.

[kalika]

I'm pleased that there were a few bits of happy to discard in order to depress us all.

[turkeyphant]

What's the timeframe here and what is Benjamin?

Brother, revel in the incoherence and the uselessness.

[ghostlight]

Well, there's one dated April 28th. The entry before that would be slightly earlier April. The last entry was made the day of the post. I write inconsistently.

Benjamin is a this

[turkeyphant]

I don't know whether it's true that it could never be as good again or whether it's a meaningless question due to incommensurability.

[ghostlight]

The issue is more that it's not a question, just a feeling. It is ever so hard to argue against those.

[ghostlight]

Don't get me wrong, these entries are all entirely from the ass-end of the relationship, when it was beyond repair. If it had never been good it would never have hurt.

[1010110011]

I adore you and your rabbit.
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So we are twins, then? You and me, we're both alone.

And.. 'tis -so- nice to say "hello" to you, again.

[ghostlight]

I'm the cute twin.