[Private; hackable]
So, it's Father's Day. Sometimes I haven't even noticed the date--yeah, that probably makes me a bad son--but I've been thinking about you a lot lately. Maybe you know why. Just how close can the dead be to the living without causing problems? Do you watch over me? Did you watch over Grace?
I still miss you, but I don't know anymore what I'd do if I saw you again. Maybe I'd yell at you for being such an idiot. Honestly, if I could go back in time I'd probably clock you and tell you not to do it. So many people...I know you couldn't have known what'd happen, though.
It's just, why did you trust that man? Didn't you think what he said was too good to be true? That he was suspicious? The whole thing seems weird, how he just happened to show up when you were desperate. I don't think any of it was an accident.
But you put your trust in him anyways. I never realized before that you needed Grace and me just as much as we needed you. So, I want to tell you straight: I'm still upset about what you did. It was shortsighted and selfish and just plain stupid.
But you're still the greatest dad I could have. I hope you're happy with Mom and Grace, wherever you guys are.
And I hope you're not upset with me for giving Lenny a Father's Day present. Ever since you died, he's really looked out for me, like I'm his own son. He won't replace you, but he's family too, right?
[All strikes were typed, then deleted. Johnny probably gave Lenny tickets (and the evening off) for a sporting event--might be boxing.]
I still miss you, but I don't know anymore what I'd do if I saw you again. Maybe I'd yell at you for being such an idiot. Honestly, if I could go back in time I'd probably clock you and tell you not to do it. So many people...I know you couldn't have known what'd happen, though.
It's just, why did you trust that man? Didn't you think what he said was too good to be true? That he was suspicious? The whole thing seems weird, how he just happened to show up when you were desperate. I don't think any of it was an accident.
But you put your trust in him anyways. I never realized before that you needed Grace and me just as much as we needed you. So, I want to tell you straight: I'm still upset about what you did. It was shortsighted and selfish and just plain stupid.
But you're still the greatest dad I could have. I hope you're happy with Mom and Grace, wherever you guys are.
And I hope you're not upset with me for giving Lenny a Father's Day present. Ever since you died, he's really looked out for me, like I'm his own son. He won't replace you, but he's family too, right?
[All strikes were typed, then deleted. Johnny probably gave Lenny tickets (and the evening off) for a sporting event--might be boxing.]