gah! i got my senior pictures scary! lol

well been awhile since i updated this well nothing new here been bored tomorrow im stuck at school from 230 to 6 something cause i have to help heble set up for after school night we goin to sing htere grr dont want to go but i have no choice

No space around me ( Read more... )

omg vegas was soo fun but we just had to stay at circus circus it was a nightmare clowns everywhere!! omg ! lol well anyways spencer u probly goin to hate me but i saw cirque du soleil Mystere it was cool lol i saw it at treasure island hotel ( Read more... )

Feelings of confusion,
Depression,
Uncertainty.

Where do I belong?
Where do I go?
What do I do?

Pick up the phone.
No one to call.
What would I say?

Get in the car.
No where to go.
No one to see.

Deep inside
Is the urge to scream.
At what?

Trapped.
No escape.
Have the need,
The desire,
The want,
For release -
For freedom.

ehh its short oh well latly iv been geting writers block idk how els i can express my feelings hmmm oh well ill figure something out ( Read more... )

I get a funny feeling ( Read more... )

Silence
Only tears
As I press the blade
Against my skin

Red
The blood flows
From the wounds
Echoing my inner pain

Satisfaction
As I feel the knife
Slicing into me
I only deserve pain

Anguish
As I realize what I've done
I feel accomplishment
As I gaze at the marks upon my skin

Stares
People are horrified
Don't understand why
Neither do I

i hope i am lucky enouph to die before i am 18 ive done everything there is to really do as a person except ive never really loved someone ive never had another half its so hard to be me and do that 17 years and ive never loved someone who loves me back someone i can talk to, someone who understyands me becouse knowone really does... i just want to ( Read more... )

why does life have to be so dificult? i dont understand anything anymore... i dont understand why people have to be the way they are? its like wtf is there problem... people say there your friend, but really do they think that? you never know what someone is thinking and if there actually your friend there are so many two faced people out thre and ( Read more... )

haha THANK YOU!! margaret you made my day that was funny i needed that lol didnt sleep at all last night i had this huge headache grr there geting worst and worst and now the meds that are like extreamly strong that soppose to like nock u out dont work anymore which means ineed stronger meds and i dont think they have htem lol eh oh well im in a ( Read more... )