Everything is different, yet... the same.

[gianara]

I haven't been posting in here for fear I would say something and it be taken out of context the way pretty much everything I have said in past years has been. My husband had a way of twisting things to where I stayed confused about my own actions. I found it better to just keep to myself and hide. I've done it for so long now I have almost

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[amethystlight]

*HUGS*

[gianara]

*hugs back* Thank you, sweetie! I've forgotten just how therapeutic lj is.

How are you? I haven't talked to you in ages.
I need to catch up on everyone's journals. I haven't read anything from anyone in so long.
I just found my way back to lpdc after a long absence. You should stop by!

[amethystlight]

You're welcome. :) Whenever ya need one... :D

I think I was still in AZ the last I saw you here. My roommates and I moved to OK in Aug, then I moved back to NY in Oct to help my parents with things. I'm now a pharmacy-technician-in-training at the same store I worked at before. Currently I'm dealing with my depression again and trying to find the right medication to help. As for my journal, it's full of Transformers talk. ;D

As for LPdC, I lurk there from time to time. I'm short on free time these days so I tend to either vent or dump fanfic into my LJ, see what the news is in a couple of places, then get back to being busy. I also came to the realization I have no skill at socializing after all these years, although that doesn't mean I'll stop keeping an eye on my friends. :)

[gianara]

I wondered if you were back in NY when I was reading some updates and you were talking about your parents. I'm so glad you are a pharmacy tech. That is a good job to have.

I hope you find the right med for you. I didn't think Lexapro was helping me until I went off it for two weeks.... that was scary...lol I don't know if it is the right one because I still battle depression, but it is definitely better than not being on it. I think I need to just change my mindset and get back to meditation and positive thinking. Have you ever read Louise Hay? Her books have helped me in the past. You Can Heal Your Life is a good one. I also just started back looking at these cards for inspirational affirmations. I hope you take a look and they help in some way! *hugs*

[destinare]

It's okay! You need to let it all out and why not your LJ? It -is- YOUR LJ. *hugs* I hope you feel better soon. I know how rough things can be, especially with cancer. My aunt lost her battle with breast cancer in November and now my biological grandfather has been diagnosed with bone and prostate cancer.

I'm sorry. I'm beginning to ramble about my woes when this is all about you! ^^;

*hugs again* I know you'll be okay. Remember, you have all of us here on LJ if you ever need to vent, chat, or just ramble on about nonsense. ^_^ We all love you, Gia.

[gianara]

Desti! How are you? How is it having Jenn and Trav living near by now? I'm sending my kids to CO Springs in the late fall when the snow comes back. Their friends moved to a base ... don't know which one...lol

I am so sorry to hear about your aunt and gpa! Cancer is an ugly disease.

I def think I will be back to journaling. It actually helps my mind flow better and I really want to get back to my book too. :)

[destinare]

I'm doing okay. I'll be getting out of the military here pretty soon (this Friday, in fact) but that's another issue all together that I'll have to talk about later. It's... complicated.

And it's nice having Jenn and Trav here. ^_^ I haven't spoken to them as of late (see above issue), but I know they were doing well when I last spoke with them.

I'll add you to a couple of my custom lists that I think you will enjoy. Not everyone enjoys reading poetry and stories. ^^;

[richlgm]

"Rich has been a huge source of support. We have our fights which we work out and get through, but mostly we have a lot of fun together. When things are going well and we are laughing or just being lazy and watching a movie together it makes me forget the bad things. I can see the love he has for me in his eyes. I feel comforted and know I am not alone

[gianara]

You are sweet. Thank you

I hate our fights ... especially after what I went through the past few years. I know you have also had a crappy years too and really regret your last relationship. We have to find a way to let that go.

I am working through my depression, but you also have to realize how much pain my body is in on some days. Sometimes I get bad side effects from my IV treatments. Some days I can't get up and go play all day. You have seen me when we are out. You look at me and can see my eyes glazed over, pasty white face and broken out in a cold sweat. You know my body can only take so much at times. Other times I can go all day. You just have to be patient with me on bad days.

I appreciate all you do for me and my kids :) You are also my best friend and I love you too.