summary of what's been going on
I pretty much managed to work myself into a frenzy, thinking it was past the deadline for signing up for a supplemental exam. i needed it because I failed (as in F) my calc class (pretty pathetic, I know). that was luckily resolved today, though, so all is well, and I can go back to a sort of nonchalant dislike of my disorganized and irresponsible nature
I got a way overpriced weekly planner. hopefully that'll keep me at least somewhat on track. to, you know, finding a summer (and later weekend) job 2 1/2 months into summer. yeah... I'm getting sort of annoyed. I mean, how good does "uhh yeah I fucked around all last summer" look on a college application? didnt think so. but anyway, does anyone know of a decent weekend job I could get during the school year? I'm thinking something that doesnt involve commission pay or having to work with lots of rotting animal carcass or really serious physical exertion... although I dont think anyone would hire me for that anyway. i honestly dont mind minimum wage, but nothing below that.
and uh, yeah! I've been getting a little bit done... a few applications here and there, though nobody's even asked me back for an interview except for City Year, which I'm REALLY REALLY hoping I get because it'd be exactly what I need (non-academic, different environment, small group of peers, challenging work, no fucking homework, and real results. and oh yeah, it looks kickass on an application). the thing is, I get anxious over a lot of things, and I hate hate hate the paperwork that comes with filling out job applications. How many times can I write down info about my past 3 jobs before losing my marbles? and how many times can I get absolutely rejected before I lose hope, and motivation with it?
I also wanna start taking dance classes. Sheng and I were supposed to be 3 or 4 classes into a bellydancing course, though that never seems to happen. boo. I'm also looking for latin dances (salsa, chacha, merengue, though I dont know much about them), hip hop, and contra dancing.
I've been seeing Justin a lot lately. Which has been very good, for both of us. I think he's about the only person I know I could constantly be around for 2 1/2 months and not get really sick of. Though we are running out of ideas for dates. Later today we're supposed to explore some clothing store and try on outfits in the dressing room just for fun. well, I'm pretty excited.
it's so exciting and simply refreshing to able to work with someone on so many levels. I know I'm young and inexperienced and confused and probably making a lot of mistakes, but I honestly think we're doing pretty well. it takes work, but things just seem to fit with him. and oh yeah he's dropdead gorgeous.
I realize this was sort of disjointed ranty. Maybe if I start posting more often I'll get better about that?
I got a way overpriced weekly planner. hopefully that'll keep me at least somewhat on track. to, you know, finding a summer (and later weekend) job 2 1/2 months into summer. yeah... I'm getting sort of annoyed. I mean, how good does "uhh yeah I fucked around all last summer" look on a college application? didnt think so. but anyway, does anyone know of a decent weekend job I could get during the school year? I'm thinking something that doesnt involve commission pay or having to work with lots of rotting animal carcass or really serious physical exertion... although I dont think anyone would hire me for that anyway. i honestly dont mind minimum wage, but nothing below that.
and uh, yeah! I've been getting a little bit done... a few applications here and there, though nobody's even asked me back for an interview except for City Year, which I'm REALLY REALLY hoping I get because it'd be exactly what I need (non-academic, different environment, small group of peers, challenging work, no fucking homework, and real results. and oh yeah, it looks kickass on an application). the thing is, I get anxious over a lot of things, and I hate hate hate the paperwork that comes with filling out job applications. How many times can I write down info about my past 3 jobs before losing my marbles? and how many times can I get absolutely rejected before I lose hope, and motivation with it?
I also wanna start taking dance classes. Sheng and I were supposed to be 3 or 4 classes into a bellydancing course, though that never seems to happen. boo. I'm also looking for latin dances (salsa, chacha, merengue, though I dont know much about them), hip hop, and contra dancing.
I've been seeing Justin a lot lately. Which has been very good, for both of us. I think he's about the only person I know I could constantly be around for 2 1/2 months and not get really sick of. Though we are running out of ideas for dates. Later today we're supposed to explore some clothing store and try on outfits in the dressing room just for fun. well, I'm pretty excited.
it's so exciting and simply refreshing to able to work with someone on so many levels. I know I'm young and inexperienced and confused and probably making a lot of mistakes, but I honestly think we're doing pretty well. it takes work, but things just seem to fit with him. and oh yeah he's dropdead gorgeous.
I realize this was sort of disjointed ranty. Maybe if I start posting more often I'll get better about that?