Damn. A beautiful fireworks display and a lovely evening with my man, and months of anger and hatred at this school just wash away. Just contentment remains. A pleasant reminder that the last four years have had many wonderful moments as well. I have felt welcome and wanted, and for that I will be eternally grateful. Thank you ( Read more... )

Getting sick was probably the best thing for me. It forced me to take a day off and rest. I'm actually quite happy. All of these well wishes (and soup and brownies) have been marvelous for my psyche. Thank you all, and I promise to return to my loud annoying self shortly!

Apparently I have a 100.7 degree fever. Small, but it just makes everything that much more to deal with. I plan to sleep for the next 12 hours though, so I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow.

Swarthmore is surprisingly dead at 4:40 sunday morning. I've gotten used to at least having the environmental service people around to keep me company, but they don't come in on the weekend, so it's just me. It's kinda nice in a surreal way; like the entire science center is here for me and only me. Part of it is just lonely and depressing ( Read more... )

Being severely sleep deprived is surprising similar to being severely drunk ( Read more... )

I've been posting every day; why should today be any different? I took a 6 hour NAP today. Though all the more behind on my thesis, I feel rested, physically, mentally, and emotionally. Plus I probably won't be tired later, so I can work on my thesis then! Yay!

I am not incompetent.
I am not lazy.
I am not stupid.
I am not ugly.
I am not hateful of others.
I will not hate myself.

(Repeat three times daily.)

[Edited]

I finally became brave enough to check my voice mail. I had 18 unread messages. My mother took first place for the most calls, though my sister and Anita tied for a close second ( Read more... )

I haven't updated for a while. Too much has happened, and I feel like if I can't write it all down then I shouldn't write any of it down ( Read more... )

SO BORING! *cries* Peak picking goes from tedious to downright painful, copying reactions over is just boring. Oh God, please strike me down for all of my blaspheming ways. Hmmm, maybe this is his way of striking me down...