the return of black sea water

[gilroy_royal]

it's 4:03 am and my room is filled with paper other people's paper i take apart their stories and make my own on top i am not sure what kind of thing that is most of the storytellers are dead 1897 1924 1955 just a few off the top of my head "the southerns" "fighting blood" "the family legal adviser" just to name a few they made things and i made

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[artemnesia]

I paint in children's books... the ones abandoned in garbage cans and apartments that people have been evicted from.. in the backs of thrift stores... I also go for music books. I don't know... I prefer age use smell texture sneezes words.. things that are not me, but are part of me.

I like your fake names.

they all say "thanks"

[gilroy_royal]

all of my books are abandoned as well.

[merles]

yes
i often think i should be a good actress, what with all the pretending i do.

[theeaseofrain]

everyone loves you no one could pretend not to unless they're not sure of what they are made of themselves but once before i saw your work and wondered if it was all you or if it had to do with someone else underneath and i suppose sometimes their light does shine through or their darkness and the paper has strength but it's only potential, you make it kinetic and yours and that's why you're great but not for your art. for you.

[gilroy_royal]

not everyone loves me and if they did that's not my goal i don't know what my goal is we haven't talked in a while that's my fault you are very nice to me i hope you send the camera soon so i can fill it

[theeaseofrain]

it's okay not to have a goal they usually mess things up if you're not careful and sometimes i'm not careful so my life is full of tip toes and akward stances "shhhh"-ing everything that's not a book or a brush or a cloud but i'm ok i do miss talking to you my mind hasn't been well lately i don't talk to anyone or smile or even know what i'm doing but i will always be nice to you and can't wait to get back the camera i sent you though i found one at a thrift store it was a kodak faux polaroid and i bought it but they stopped distributing film for it so now it just sits in a room at my parents house and i want it to sing but it's dead i should bury it.

[gilroy_royal]

thanks sondra. i don't think i have ever read anything by samuel beckett, but i am glad you like it either way.

[conductorfuctor]

you are the dead storyteller
drowning the forgotten
in black sea water

i'm am sorry i haven't been around (not really but you don't read in between parenthesis)
you will forgive me (because i am one of your favorite people
again you didn't read this)
you will wait anxiously for my soothing presence
(fag)

[gilroy_royal]

i miss you rus. i hope we can hang out soon.

and yeah, you are one of my favorite people.