This is Su.  This is my very awesome sister.  And she's going to be on TV in March.  How cool is that??
http://revver.com/video/658565/sand-castle-explosions-sand-blasters-iii-new/

NO matter how early I get to lab, it seems to be impossible to leave at a decent hour.   Not sure why.   Maybe I like the quiet.  Maybe it's the free NMR next door (usually).  But one of these days I will comfortably get all my work done in less than 12 hours.  One day...

P.S. it was HunY's 34th birthday today.  She could be as old as I am, and somehow she's not.  I will miss her when she gradumitates.

{sigh} don't it all be crazies?  and, no matter how early I get into lab, I can't help but leave late.  It's some comfort level.  I dont' like leaving when I could just as well be getting free NMR time..  peace and ( Read more... )

In the end, I crave for voice  ...for want of sight, of touch,
Even smell and taste..  A tactile person I am.
And I'm empty tonight feeling like crumpled paper
While chemistry echoes ..churning away in my brain lobes.
Empty like a sigh.  A sigh that wishes things were different.
I can't do this...
Is all that leaving this salty residue
Of phlegm, these ( Read more... )

I guess the least I can say is, I have groupmembers and an advisor who care for me.  I don't know what else to day.  I ate up, drank up, watched Superman and drank up more..  I'm no superman..  And I feel so lost.  Seems each time I feel like I'm somewhere I want to be, I lose my mind and lose it, lose it all.  I suppose what makes it worse is, I ( Read more... )

-drawings-
Sometimes I feel so stressed and crazy that I draw stuff.  I was studying for Wayland's exam in the library and I was looking outside, and I drew the scene I saw in a sketch and charcoal sort of way.  If you have seen this view, I think you would recognize it.  But othrwise, I think.. it is just a set of odd buildings.  It happens to be ( Read more... )

aww, man..
I hate closed-mindedness.
And I have standards.
Standards for *close* friends, for people I hang out with, love with all the applejuice I can muster.
I am starting to realize that sometimes you just gotta give people tough love.
And if that doesn't work... tough luck.
It's a difficult thing.
Because it means
Sometimes I
just cant
help.

Some people ( Read more... )

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Listening to Black Holes and Revelations and wishing there were revelations to be had.

Win lose win lose all of the above..
I want more than I can have, I want for you to have more than I can say.
I want for myself just too much to ask.
And you..  I want you to make something of your life intead of sitting there failing at life when your family have ( Read more... )

{sigh}

I am tired, and I feel like crud.  Almost fell asleep during afternoon NMR trainig, and that's great, cause I was the only person there, and I was sitting 3 feet from my instructor...

This past week and couple weeks has completely drained me.
I'm feeling it in the way feel I have desperately needed to sleep when 11pm  rolls around.
The kinda ( Read more... )