Well the dinner at my parents friends house is over and the truth is it really didnt feel like much of a thanksgiving...it was alright though. So now i am home alone being emo and reminiscing on how great my night was last night. I guess this band keepsake that marc introduced me to has that effect on me. man...life is good. Im in a sugar cloud, ( Read more... )

why am i constantly sick this year? and why do i have to be a dumbass and get sick the week before BOB1? i always get sick when i am up there, so me being weak to begin with isnt going to help at all... oh well. Ahh this week needs to be over! i feel like i havent gotten any rest at all the last week and a half, the only minute i will feel some ( Read more... )

"this really is the west end" keeyan said "we got the culver kids, the weschester kids, and the el segundo kids all together". couldnt have said it better my self. I love the hardcore scene, i cant even begin to describe how happy i am to have fallen into this scene with such great people and such a great vibe. I am soo LUCKY to be alive and ( Read more... )

god, today was weird. Its weird how you get used to a pattern, sort of a routine, and then its gone...taken from you. It's just such a weird feeling, i cant even describe it, i guess i had never been in love before, so thats why this is so new to me. wow.....that's pretty much all i can say. The rain today fit my dreery mood but things got a lil ( Read more... )

when i got home from school today i was so tired i went straight to sleep. The following 3 hours were the weirdest of my life. I kept falling in and out of sleep but when i awoke i would have hallucinations of people in my room...but then im not sure if i actually woke up or if i was only waking up in my dream? I was confused in my sleep and when i ( Read more... )

you think it would be cool to stay home and all but it really isnt. Everytime i get sick i am overjoyed by the idea of staying home, and when the day comes that i do stay home i mope around all day. Its just not fun to chill by yourself, watching horrible television programs and feeling shitty. I wonder why we all believe that it would be. You ( Read more... )

too bad it really doesnt. It feels like shit. I feel like all the wrong people voted for me and all the people that i did want to support me didnt...they supported the better candidate and now they are dissapointed that i won. Caralyn should've won. end of story. for a minute before they announced the winner i just sat there and forgot about how ( Read more... )

i know that hope's unknown. Sometimes the water seems so real. As i walk it fills my lungs, my god, I'm drowning. This day never seems to end. This pain, never. This rage i can not let go...

enough said.

alex called me from camp!! damn i miss him a hella lot, this has never happened to me before, but its great. Everything and anything reminds me of him and hearing his voice just made my day...week...month. hehe =)