i think going down this road is going to be a lot harder than i ever imagined...thank you all for supporting me! i love you guys...

i think tonight i have been more honest with myself than i have been in a long time...

...today is the first day of the rest of my life...

...right now i might not ask for you help, but i will need it...it's going to be hard to face all the things i've been avoiding for so long, but i know i have your support and that you love me...

so today was rather productive...i got up at noon, watched all my shows that i taped through out the week, did some homework, went to the boynton mall with my mom and looked at prom dresses, broke out in hives because of the dresses, got some shoes, got a magnetic bracelet that is suppose to reduce my migranes somehow, and got chinese b/c i figured ( Read more... )

Dog subpoenaed as witness in murder case ( Read more... )

guess what everyone??? i'm in my G period class and i really have no work to do(well actually i have 2 tests for lukihart, one for pre-cal, one for spanish, and two for science, but i'm probably going to take incompletes and spend my spring break making everything up)...krystel is looking up the weather at exactly cardinal newman, not the county ( Read more... )

i think i have changed a lot since middle school, but then it seems that i really haven't grown at all...there are some things that i still struggle with: my faith, my friends, my family ( Read more... )

just a little bit stressed out...the end of the quarter is in like two weeks and all i've done is make up lukihart's in class essays...i'm going in early tomorrow to make up the hiroshima test and will probably do his other two tests before friday, but as for the rest of my classes...i'm just a little overwhelmed by it all, i feel like i've just ( Read more... )

i have never in the past, right now, or in the future commit suicide, or even consider the thought of commiting suicide...i actually read my entry over again to see if there was even a chance people could assume i was planning to commit suicide, but i really do not see how anyone could have come to that conclusion...what i said was(word for word ( Read more... )

so i was taking a shower this morning and i felt really strange all of the sudden and like my ears were ringing and then everything went black...somehow i ended up on the floor outside of my shower, i don't think it was that long after...it was very strange and i really have no idea why it happened...i've been doing acupuncture and i stopped taking ( Read more... )

i am sick of people staring at me...i am sick of the whispers, the stupid comments, the "why are u wearing sunglasses?"...i am especially sick of all the stupid ray charles jokes...i am not black, a man, blind, or dead, yet people seem to have the urge to compare me to him or shout his name as i walk by...i am sick of people assuming that i can ( Read more... )