A week until my birthday...why do I feel so apprehensive about it? There are so many people who have said that 'maybe' they will be there...ugh. Is it unfair for me to feel like I don't have any of my old friends anymore?

Make new friends
But keep the old
One is silver
And the other gold

I sung it at every girl scout meeting - even put it in my ( Read more... )

Is it weird that a GV guy I slept with on and off for nearly three years is now dating a girl I went to charlevoix high school with? Yes, I think so. Especially after he got pissed at me over a) my problems b) his inability to cope with being "in love" with a high school junior from NY. Yeah, love, that was it ( Read more... )

Wow...haven't posted in forever. Not actually sure if anyone reads this at all anymore. I'm back in Charlevoix for the summer. So far has been less than exciting, I guess. I'm still trying to find a job. Today, I turned in three applications...not that I really want to work at a gas station or sell shoes (I hate feet, remember?), but I need to make ( Read more... )

Where is the support system for when I'm falling apart? Not home. I am no longer the broken child. I'm supposed to be the perfect one or something. How the hell does that work out? And ON TOP of that, there's a lot of pressure to do more than I'm already doing....ie, getting a boyfriend, figuring out what the fuck I want to do with my life, getting ( Read more... )

Everything's on my nerves. So goddamn much homework. Work is pissing me off. My break schedules keep getting fucked up, and then on top of that, people come back late from their breaks and mine get pushed back even later. I just got the weekend schedule. They put me on 4-8:30pm when I said that I could work any time before four on Saturday. WTF? I ( Read more... )

A high school English teacher once told my class that having a character cry one tear is overly dramatic and unrealistic, that people never cry just one tear.

He lied. That's how I cry on Prozac.

I have shit luck. My 21st birthday is May 24th. The Dirty Americans play on May 25th. I will until this time probably not be able to see them because of their tendency to play at 21+ venues. Of course, on May 25th they're playing at a coffee shop....in a dry county. All ages. Go figure.

Okay, well, as many of you know, I haven't been doing well at all lately. Last night and today better have been the bottom. You never know though, do you? Even when you think it couldn't possibly get any worse.

Yesterday, in class, I felt like I was either going to start bawling or throw up and I don't even know why. It isn't anything from the ( Read more... )

It's official. Valentine's Day is the worst day of the year...except for the candy, but you can get that on Easter and Halloween.

I'm sorry. There is something wrong with me ( Read more... )