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I feel like I am just one awkward and tension filled person moving through a point in my life where I have no idea what to do or where to go. I need to change many things, but I don't know what and I also want to keep so many things, but I don't know how. There are so many people I want to talk to and reconnect with, but don't feel I have the right, way, or will to do so, but then again there are people that I are connected to that aren't good to be around, but I can't seem to get rid of them. I feel like I am way too old to be so immature, but way too young to be at a point in my life where I have a job that I can say I will have next year and not look forward to having it. I don't like having a plan for so far ahead in the future which I guess is why I can say I have no earthly idea what I want to do with my life or who I want to be, and at teh same time I can say that a year really isn't that far ahead. I know I am not alone here in thinking at least some of these things, but I can't help but feel that way a lot, and I know I have people that I can talk to, but I just would rather not talk about it and enjoy the company of the people that I know and love. I know I didn't have a point but to share, but I think i have lost my train, so maybe I will begin again another day.