today i got up and thought resolutely that today, TODAY, was the day. i was going to quit working for k. it was going to have to be today. so i went in today and hugged and kissed them all day long and wispered in their ears that i'd love them both forever, and then, as i was about to leave, i had this totally heartbreaking conversation. it was ( Read more... )

i am trying to decide where i fall on the sick continuum. i am on that line of feeling really sick but not so sick that i can't go to class but also not so well that i should go to class. hmmm....i guess i will wait till this afternoon and just have to deciede one way or another. but boo hoo hoo. my throat and everything else is killing me. i had ( Read more... )

so...the verdict is...well, you're reading this, so i guess you all know that i got to stay home. i called and she was so mad i think she'll slap me tomorrow, but oh well. she said maybe three words the whole conversation, leaving lots of room of uncomfortable, anger-filled silences, and then was just like "well, what can i do. if you're not coming ( Read more... )

today will be just that. this is why: i have a ten page paper due today. wednesday i babysat my usual hours, nine till seven. yesterday i was in class in the evening and had to meet with finaid people and do loan stuff all morning (this literally took five to seven phone calls and an hour on line....) and then last night i had to watch the ( Read more... )

but i have been up searchinig for and learning about loan options. i am trying to get a loan so that i can not work for the rest of my semester. i want to just do my school work and write a really good thesis and do a good job. i don't want to be stressed or hurried or upset. i just want to be a student ( Read more... )

that you would rather vomit than hang out with them? cause that's what little e did today. the little bastard actually dislikes me enough that the idea of going to a sea lion show with me sent him into a fit of hysterics with the grand finale of him puking all over the elevator and himself ON PURPOSE. needless to say, we did not go to the sea lion ( Read more... )

there is no hell like grad school. no hell at all like it. certainly there are other hells. but i find this one to be particularly unique and damning in it's mastery of mind control, deprivations of all sorts, and the sheer veil of unrest, both physical and mental. there is no way to describe it to those who are not there. you can say "this is ( Read more... )

did anybody see the fox news at ten tonight? there was just a segment on the gay marriage decision where the icon and the music suggested something of "gay watch, 2004" or "homostorm, 2004" something like that. so, anyway, then there was this news footage FROM THE 80S/EARLY 90S of all these gay couples. every picture was of a same sex couple ( Read more... )

despite the sleep deprivation, i really do love being up at this hour. i love seeing the sun rise. and i love the stillness of it all. and last night i got four and half hours of sleep, so it's not so bad ( Read more... )

she's almost two and she still thinks that there is a "suck" aspect to the water bottle. it is not a straw, eleanor! silly, silly pig. *heart ( Read more... )