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[gingerpetunia]

Today my "earworm" song is "Teenage Dirtbag" by Wheatus, the band who did "Sunshine" if you remember all the way back to the Y2K. I played this song all night through my shift. In fact it's still on. It's just above my vocal range and I have to strain to sing it right, or I can drop an octave. I think i want singing lessons when I climb my dusty

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[avocado_tom]

How do I know who I am or what I want.
The temporary and the long term.

yeah, baby, yeah.

not easy questions.

not easy to know once you find it.

we're used to old patterns.
we're used to movement...
or stillness.

I'm still dealing with my transition to Pittsburgh.
Transitions in relationships.

What do I want?
Isn't this what I wanted?
But it's different than I thought it would be...
...or is it?

I think it's all about baby steps and awareness.
Baby steps in that all of these changes take place slowly.
That we can't change ourselves or our thinking on a dime.
Awareness in that we need to think about what WE want
not what we've been programmed to want by
society
history
parents
friends
you name it.
You're good at the awareness.
At saying "Fuck it. I'm not buying in."

Go.
Find yourself.

Love,
....

[brcmapgirl]

It's hard to figure out what you want. I certainly know that. Someone asked me what I wanted to be last night and I really didn't know. I told them of my relationship fantasy to be a housewife and mom. Beyond that, I'm just not really sure. I ended up in a career that pays well, and yet is still sort of unsatisfying.

Rangering lightly this year renewed my feeling that I need a mission in life, but I have none. I rocked as a ranger, sorry, but calling in a stolen vehicle for intercept makes me cool, especially since he may have perpetrated an assault (driver and car were bloody).

I don't know. All I can say is that I'll miss you if you don't come back this direction. But do what you have to do. I love you G.