So maybe I've been writing again

[ginzai]

I think I haven't updated this particular journal in nigh on two and a half years. Maybe more, at this point. It's been a long time, anyway. But this has always sort of been my writing and fandom journal and lately, well, I've been having more writing and fandom type thoughts. So in that vein, SPN finale coda fic, anyone

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[redrikki]

I wish I could say something coherent and deep about this fic and the episode, but I am still just in awe of how perfect this was as a coda. Of course killing Ruby together and standing arm and arm as Lucifer rose didn't fix their issues. Of course Sam is all with the guilt and hasn't cottoned on to the fact the voice mail was faked. I can't recall if Sam actually knew about Dean breaking the seal before, but this reveal is perfect if he didn't.

[ginzai]

Oh, thank you so much! I firmly believe that the issues raised in S4 would not go away that easily. There's the voicemail for Sam that he doesn't know the truth about, and for Dean, well, there's the entire way that Sam has treated him all season long, and oh, boys. Finding each other again and for Sam to know how Ruby played him will do a huge amount to help them recover, I think, but there's got to be a lot more yet to work through.

I know it's not canon one way or another about whether Sam knew about how the first Seal broke, but I honestly can't picture Dean telling him at that point and I'm not sure who else would have. The only person who might would have been Ruby, but we don't know for sure whether she knew and even if she did, whether she would have thought it suited her needs to manipulate Sam. And all in all, I think that finding out this way is about the only thing that's going to snap Sam out of his misery, you know? Or at least in this fic. :)

[ginzai]

Thank you! I think I'm one of the very few people in fandom who actually liked Ruby and thought that she died too soon. Well, liked her as a character concept, anyway, because there's something very appealing about the dark mentor/lover sort of vibe she had with Sam, and they could have done so very, very much to mess with Sam's head in S5 if she'd been around. She's pretty much the perfect antagonist for him. I just would have requested a different actress. *cough*

I do think she was proud of Sam, though. Absolutely.

[ladylothwen]

Oh Sammy

That right there is what I've been holding fast too since the beginning of this season.

[ginzai]

S4 is the season that taught me to love Sam. I mean, it's not that I didn't like him before, it's just that he didn't really appeal to me that much before. Now though? Oh man, I love him to bits and pieces and he just breaks my heart because he tried so hard to do the right things and instead everything went straight to pot. Oh, Sam. I just sort of want to scoop him up and feed him cookies and tell him everything will be okay.

[ladylothwen]

Exactly. I've always loved Sam but this season I found my self paying more attention to him when he wasn't at the center of attention. His story is just so heartbreaking and he needs cookies and hugs.

[ginzai]

Oh, I have SUCH LOVE for that icon! It's just gorgeous!

I think my issue with Sam previously is that I got tired of his How Will I Turn Evil Today? mindset when there were absolutely no signs whatsoever that he had an evil bone in his body. He wasn't all light and puppies or the like, you could see him be prideful and occasionally spiteful, and he had flaws, but nothing that ever could be considered evil. And then to add to that, each time those flaws came up, they were almost immediately brushed aside, without any consequences explored for whatever mistake he made or sin committed. And that made me lose interest in him, because I love me my flawed characters and I need to see those flaws explored.

So when we get this slightly darker Sam in S4, whose flaws are right out there in the open for the whole world to see? And when it really looks like there will be some honest consequences for his behavior? My interest abounds. And in trying to puzzle out where he was coming from this season and why he was doing what he does, I

[erinrua]

Crap. I was gonna try and write something like this, and you beat me to it! *HUGS* So glad your writing mojo is back. This is perfect and painful and pretty much what I imagined, only better. If it don't play out like this very early in Season 5, I'll be shocked.

This? Is THE coda. Perfect and so very them

[ginzai]

Hey, if you are inspired, you should totally write your version! There can't be enough 4x22 codas, IMHO. I'm really glad that you liked mine and yeah, I totally agree that things are going to be pretty aching and raw between the brothers fr a bit longer. Thank you for reading!

[mangokulfi]

Very nicely done. I also don't think Dean would have told Sam about breaking the first seal given the boo hoo and his own need to process what it all meant. I like your Sam voice. I wonder if he would hear the real message if he listened to it again.

[ginzai]

I so don't believe that Dean would tell Sam about the first Seal and I can't see who else would have informed him. That boo hoo made ME want to slap Sam, I can't even imagine how hurt and furious it must have made Dean.

As for the message, I hadn't even considered that he'd hear the real version if he listened again. I sort of like the concept that it stays the same, because I can't picture much else pissing Dean off further than to hear the altered version. That voicemail was just... Wow. It doesn't excuse Sam for deciding to go off the rails as a result of hearing it, but oh man, I can't fault him in the slightest for being put in a very bad mental place for listening. But you're right, having him listen to the actual message has veeeery interesting possibilities as well... *ponders*