In Reality part 2
It was the day of Inhwan’s birthday party. Junsu had gotten everything ready and guests will be arriving soon.
He had gotten a 2 layered cake covered in blue icing, as it was Inhwan’s favorite color, with a miniature dolphin on top of it. Inhwan squealed in delight when he saw the cake and could not wait to keep the miniature dolphin to himself.
The doorbell rang and Changmin, along with Minho and Taemin were the first to arrive. Despite Changmin’s disappointment, Junsu has already talked to Changmin about it and told him not to hold the grudge against Yoochun.
More guests started arriving and Junsu had to entertain the guests while Inhwan was playing with the kids.
“Be glad I’m not going to butcher you alive hyung,” Changmin stood beside him as they watched their sons play with each other.
“Changmin…”
“I won’t say that I am happy about it. Junsu loves you so much, to the point that he was willing to let you go, for your own happiness. Even if we can see how much he is hurting deep inside…would you be able to have someone like him ever again?”
He glanced around and found Junsu laughing with Minho and another friend. Junsu was all smiles despite the hurt inside and for the first time, his emotions were being greatly wavered. Just how many spouses in the whole world are willing to endure two months without complaining or argue about their divorce? How many spouses are just as willing as Junsu, to give away their own husband for their happiness?
He was lost with himself. For the past month and a half, he had found himself falling in love once again with his own husband and Jaejoong was suddenly at the back of his head.
He could not do this anymore. He could no longer hurt his husband and son. He did not want Inhwan hating him for leaving them behind.
“I…I love Junsu…” he said, feeling his eyes getting heavy with tears.
Changmin gave him a bitter smile, “you just realized that now?”
He shook his head, “I have always loved him but…”
“But you love the other one more?” Changmin said.
“They are somewhat almost the same…except Jaejoong is more spontaneous and wild while Junsu is organized and tamed. There were times I could see each other in both of them and Jaejoong…”
“Hyung, I understand but it was still not right. You chose Jaejoong but what about now? Who do you want? Who do you really love? Who do you truly want to spend your lifetime with? Because once this is over with Junsu, there is no more turning back,” Changmin said.
He instantly grabbed his car keys from the kitchen while Changmin yelled at him to come back. He quickly went over to his car and started the engine and put the car into drive. He stepped on the gas pedal and made his way to Jaejoong’s place.
He ran up the stairs and knocked on the door. Jaejoong answered the door after few minutes and was surprised to see him panting.
“What is it Yoochun?” Jaejoong asked, with worry in his voice.
“I can’t do this,” he said as he took deep breaths, “I can’t do this to Junsu anymore. I can’t do the divorce,”
Jaejoong frowned and placed his hand on the forehead, “you’re not sick, are you?”
“I’m serious Jae, I love Junsu. I have always loved Junsu-”
Jaejoong punched him on the face, “you…so now you decide to pick him over me? What the fuck?! Get the fuck out of here and I don’t want to ever see you again! Screw you Park Yoochun!” and he slammed the door close.
He winced in pain and felt his nose; it was bleeding and broken.
‘But this is nothing compared to what Junsu must have been feeling…don’t worry Junsu, I’m coming back to you,’ he thought happily as he made his way down the stairs and got into his car.
He decided to stop by the nearest clinic to have his nose checked before returning home. When he stepped into the clinic, his mobile went off and the nurses gave him glares. He quickly took out his mobile from his pocket and turned it off.
He had his nose clean and bandaged and was ready to leave. When he stepped out of the clinic, he saw a flower shop across the street and saw Junsu’s favorite flower on display.
He crossed the street and purchased a bouquet of lilies for Junsu. He smiled to himself, feeling carefree, as his burden has been released from his shoulders. He remembered that he turned off his phone; Junsu and Changmin might have been worried since he just left the house like that. He turned his mobile on and suddenly tons of messages came in.
Before he had the chance to read the messages, his mobile rang and Changmin’s name was blinking on the screen.
“Changmin? What is it?” he answered
“Where the hell have you been?!” Changmin yelled and he had to pull his mobile away from his ear.
“I took care of something with Jaejoong and-”
“Hyung, you need to get here now! Junsu collapsed and we brought him to the hospital,” Changmin cut him off.
He ran inside, quickly finding his way to the ER and found Changmin, Minho, Taemin and Inhwan waiting outside.
“Daddy!” Inhwan cried as soon as he saw him and ran towards him.
“It’s okay baby, don’t cry. Papa is strong,” he picked up Inhwan into his arms and comforted him.
“What happened Changmin? What did the doctor say?” he asked, worriedly.
“The doctor hasn’t said anything yet. They’re still checking on him,” Changmin filled him up.
They waited for a little bit longer before the doctor came out.
“Which one of you is the husband?” the doctor asked.
“I am,” he took a step forward.
“Please come with me,” the doctor said and from the look of his face, it doesn’t look good.
He handed Inhwan to Minho and followed the doctor inside the room.
“How is he?” he asked as they stood outside Junsu’s room.
The doctor sighed and shook his head, “I have been his doctor for quite some time now. He was diagnosed with cirrhosis six months ago. He was already at the 4th stage when we found out and there was nothing we could do about it. I have given him about 3 months to live but I am surprised he made it this far but this is only as how far he can go…I’m sorry Mr. Park, I really wished we could do something to cure him,” the doctor patted his shoulder and opened the door for him.
He couldn’t blink. He couldn’t believe what he just heard. He felt like everything has stopped in time. But his feet moved, on their own and he found himself inside the room. Junsu was lying on the bed, with a hook in his nose to help him breathe. Junsu laid there, so palely in his loose clothes.
‘Why didn’t I notice it before? Why didn’t I pay more attention to him? Why? Was this the reason why he made those conditions so that in front of Inhwan, I was a loving husband and that there would be no negative comments about the divorce? Was it the reason why he asked me to carry him...to savor the last of our marriage? Junsu…why have you gone through this all alone?’
“Junsu…why?” he spoke, softly but with bitterness. He grabbed Junsu’s hand and held it close. “Please baby, please wake up,” he begged as he cried silently.
“Please open your eyes! I have something to tell you, please wake up,” his tears trailed down his cheeks as Junsu made no motions.
“I told Jaejoong that I don’t want to do the divorce anymore…I want you. I have always wanted you and I’m so sorry…I’m so sorry for hurting you…Junsu please wake up!” he cried as more tears continued to flow.
“I’m sorry…I’m so sorry Junsu…I’m so sorry I was late…I love you Junsu. I always loved you, please I’m begging you to open your eyes…please…”
“I will always love you…”
He gasped as he saw Junsu smiling at him with unshed tears in his eyes.
“Thank you love,” and Junsu closed his eyes for the last time and his hand dropped from his husband’s grasp.
“Junsu! No! Junssuu!”
“What the hell Park Yoochun! Wake up!”
He woke up with a jolt and blinked his eyes rapidly.
“It was a dream?” he panted as he held his chest, he could feel his heart beating rhythmically fast.
“You have been screaming out my name and kept apologizing for the past minutes, what the hell was that about?”
Junsu was right in front of him, with his arms folded together and an apron tied around his waist.
“You’re alive…you’re alive!” he exclaimed and hugged Junsu, almost pulling him back down on the bed.
“Yah! Yoochun! Let me go!” Junsu cried, trying to get out of his husband’s grasp.
“No! Never ever! I’m never ever going to let you go and no man can take me away from you!” he tightened his hold around Junsu’s waist.
“Yoochun! Let me go, I can’t breathe!” Junsu complained and he loosened his hold.
“I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to…” he apologized.
Junsu chuckled and wrapped his arms around the neck, “mind telling me what was your dream about? You sounded so desperate, was it a bad dream?”
“I don’t want to think about it but it felt so real…Inhwan…Changmin…Jaejoong…and you died!”
“Inhwan? Changmin, I can understand since he’s my brother but who is Jaejoong? How did I die?” Junsu asked curiously.
“Inhwan’s our son and Jaejoong…uh please I don’t want to remember. Please hug me, I still haven’t gotten over that shock, it was totally paralyzing,” but Junsu made no move.
“Su?” he frowned as he noticed Junsu’s worried expression.
“I have something to tell you…” Junsu spoke with hesitant in his voice.
“What is it?” he asked, and his eyes widened, “oh no…don’t tell me you have cancer?”
Junsu gaped at him, “was that the reason why I died? Aw…you must have been too traumatized,” Junsu chuckled and hugged him, “and no, I don’t have cancer so I’m not leaving you anytime soon.”
“Good! So now what was it you wanted to tell me?”
“Uhm…I don’t know how it happened but…”
“But...?”
“I’m…I’m pregnant,” Junsu said.
He gaped. Then he blinked. Then he squealed.
“Oh my God! I’m going to be a daddy!” he exclaimed with his arms up in the air.
“I take it you’re not angry?” Junsu asked slowly.
“Junsu! Why will I be angry? It’s the best news ever!” he pulled Junsu close to him and kissed him hard on the lips.
“I love you so much Park Junsu, do you know that?”
“Urg greaseball, stop it!” Junsu pretended to shudder but he laughed, “I love you too baby,” Junsu hugged him before letting go.
“Is that the doorbell?” Junsu asked, when they heard chimes.
They got up from bed and went down the stairs to the front door. Junsu opened the door and was greeted by the sight of two men.
He gasped when he recognized one of them.
“Hello! We just moved right next door and we’re your new neighbors. I’m Jung Yunho and this is my husband, Jung Jaejoong-“
He instantly closed the door.
“Yoochun! You’re so rude! Why did you close the door?” Junsu scolded.
“It’s Jaejoong! Oh my God, Jaejoong is real!”
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He had gotten a 2 layered cake covered in blue icing, as it was Inhwan’s favorite color, with a miniature dolphin on top of it. Inhwan squealed in delight when he saw the cake and could not wait to keep the miniature dolphin to himself.
The doorbell rang and Changmin, along with Minho and Taemin were the first to arrive. Despite Changmin’s disappointment, Junsu has already talked to Changmin about it and told him not to hold the grudge against Yoochun.
More guests started arriving and Junsu had to entertain the guests while Inhwan was playing with the kids.
“Be glad I’m not going to butcher you alive hyung,” Changmin stood beside him as they watched their sons play with each other.
“Changmin…”
“I won’t say that I am happy about it. Junsu loves you so much, to the point that he was willing to let you go, for your own happiness. Even if we can see how much he is hurting deep inside…would you be able to have someone like him ever again?”
He glanced around and found Junsu laughing with Minho and another friend. Junsu was all smiles despite the hurt inside and for the first time, his emotions were being greatly wavered. Just how many spouses in the whole world are willing to endure two months without complaining or argue about their divorce? How many spouses are just as willing as Junsu, to give away their own husband for their happiness?
He was lost with himself. For the past month and a half, he had found himself falling in love once again with his own husband and Jaejoong was suddenly at the back of his head.
He could not do this anymore. He could no longer hurt his husband and son. He did not want Inhwan hating him for leaving them behind.
“I…I love Junsu…” he said, feeling his eyes getting heavy with tears.
Changmin gave him a bitter smile, “you just realized that now?”
He shook his head, “I have always loved him but…”
“But you love the other one more?” Changmin said.
“They are somewhat almost the same…except Jaejoong is more spontaneous and wild while Junsu is organized and tamed. There were times I could see each other in both of them and Jaejoong…”
“Hyung, I understand but it was still not right. You chose Jaejoong but what about now? Who do you want? Who do you really love? Who do you truly want to spend your lifetime with? Because once this is over with Junsu, there is no more turning back,” Changmin said.
He instantly grabbed his car keys from the kitchen while Changmin yelled at him to come back. He quickly went over to his car and started the engine and put the car into drive. He stepped on the gas pedal and made his way to Jaejoong’s place.
He ran up the stairs and knocked on the door. Jaejoong answered the door after few minutes and was surprised to see him panting.
“What is it Yoochun?” Jaejoong asked, with worry in his voice.
“I can’t do this,” he said as he took deep breaths, “I can’t do this to Junsu anymore. I can’t do the divorce,”
Jaejoong frowned and placed his hand on the forehead, “you’re not sick, are you?”
“I’m serious Jae, I love Junsu. I have always loved Junsu-”
Jaejoong punched him on the face, “you…so now you decide to pick him over me? What the fuck?! Get the fuck out of here and I don’t want to ever see you again! Screw you Park Yoochun!” and he slammed the door close.
He winced in pain and felt his nose; it was bleeding and broken.
‘But this is nothing compared to what Junsu must have been feeling…don’t worry Junsu, I’m coming back to you,’ he thought happily as he made his way down the stairs and got into his car.
He decided to stop by the nearest clinic to have his nose checked before returning home. When he stepped into the clinic, his mobile went off and the nurses gave him glares. He quickly took out his mobile from his pocket and turned it off.
He had his nose clean and bandaged and was ready to leave. When he stepped out of the clinic, he saw a flower shop across the street and saw Junsu’s favorite flower on display.
He crossed the street and purchased a bouquet of lilies for Junsu. He smiled to himself, feeling carefree, as his burden has been released from his shoulders. He remembered that he turned off his phone; Junsu and Changmin might have been worried since he just left the house like that. He turned his mobile on and suddenly tons of messages came in.
Before he had the chance to read the messages, his mobile rang and Changmin’s name was blinking on the screen.
“Changmin? What is it?” he answered
“Where the hell have you been?!” Changmin yelled and he had to pull his mobile away from his ear.
“I took care of something with Jaejoong and-”
“Hyung, you need to get here now! Junsu collapsed and we brought him to the hospital,” Changmin cut him off.
He ran inside, quickly finding his way to the ER and found Changmin, Minho, Taemin and Inhwan waiting outside.
“Daddy!” Inhwan cried as soon as he saw him and ran towards him.
“It’s okay baby, don’t cry. Papa is strong,” he picked up Inhwan into his arms and comforted him.
“What happened Changmin? What did the doctor say?” he asked, worriedly.
“The doctor hasn’t said anything yet. They’re still checking on him,” Changmin filled him up.
They waited for a little bit longer before the doctor came out.
“Which one of you is the husband?” the doctor asked.
“I am,” he took a step forward.
“Please come with me,” the doctor said and from the look of his face, it doesn’t look good.
He handed Inhwan to Minho and followed the doctor inside the room.
“How is he?” he asked as they stood outside Junsu’s room.
The doctor sighed and shook his head, “I have been his doctor for quite some time now. He was diagnosed with cirrhosis six months ago. He was already at the 4th stage when we found out and there was nothing we could do about it. I have given him about 3 months to live but I am surprised he made it this far but this is only as how far he can go…I’m sorry Mr. Park, I really wished we could do something to cure him,” the doctor patted his shoulder and opened the door for him.
He couldn’t blink. He couldn’t believe what he just heard. He felt like everything has stopped in time. But his feet moved, on their own and he found himself inside the room. Junsu was lying on the bed, with a hook in his nose to help him breathe. Junsu laid there, so palely in his loose clothes.
‘Why didn’t I notice it before? Why didn’t I pay more attention to him? Why? Was this the reason why he made those conditions so that in front of Inhwan, I was a loving husband and that there would be no negative comments about the divorce? Was it the reason why he asked me to carry him...to savor the last of our marriage? Junsu…why have you gone through this all alone?’
“Junsu…why?” he spoke, softly but with bitterness. He grabbed Junsu’s hand and held it close. “Please baby, please wake up,” he begged as he cried silently.
“Please open your eyes! I have something to tell you, please wake up,” his tears trailed down his cheeks as Junsu made no motions.
“I told Jaejoong that I don’t want to do the divorce anymore…I want you. I have always wanted you and I’m so sorry…I’m so sorry for hurting you…Junsu please wake up!” he cried as more tears continued to flow.
“I’m sorry…I’m so sorry Junsu…I’m so sorry I was late…I love you Junsu. I always loved you, please I’m begging you to open your eyes…please…”
“I will always love you…”
He gasped as he saw Junsu smiling at him with unshed tears in his eyes.
“Thank you love,” and Junsu closed his eyes for the last time and his hand dropped from his husband’s grasp.
“Junsu! No! Junssuu!”
“What the hell Park Yoochun! Wake up!”
He woke up with a jolt and blinked his eyes rapidly.
“It was a dream?” he panted as he held his chest, he could feel his heart beating rhythmically fast.
“You have been screaming out my name and kept apologizing for the past minutes, what the hell was that about?”
Junsu was right in front of him, with his arms folded together and an apron tied around his waist.
“You’re alive…you’re alive!” he exclaimed and hugged Junsu, almost pulling him back down on the bed.
“Yah! Yoochun! Let me go!” Junsu cried, trying to get out of his husband’s grasp.
“No! Never ever! I’m never ever going to let you go and no man can take me away from you!” he tightened his hold around Junsu’s waist.
“Yoochun! Let me go, I can’t breathe!” Junsu complained and he loosened his hold.
“I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to…” he apologized.
Junsu chuckled and wrapped his arms around the neck, “mind telling me what was your dream about? You sounded so desperate, was it a bad dream?”
“I don’t want to think about it but it felt so real…Inhwan…Changmin…Jaejoong…and you died!”
“Inhwan? Changmin, I can understand since he’s my brother but who is Jaejoong? How did I die?” Junsu asked curiously.
“Inhwan’s our son and Jaejoong…uh please I don’t want to remember. Please hug me, I still haven’t gotten over that shock, it was totally paralyzing,” but Junsu made no move.
“Su?” he frowned as he noticed Junsu’s worried expression.
“I have something to tell you…” Junsu spoke with hesitant in his voice.
“What is it?” he asked, and his eyes widened, “oh no…don’t tell me you have cancer?”
Junsu gaped at him, “was that the reason why I died? Aw…you must have been too traumatized,” Junsu chuckled and hugged him, “and no, I don’t have cancer so I’m not leaving you anytime soon.”
“Good! So now what was it you wanted to tell me?”
“Uhm…I don’t know how it happened but…”
“But...?”
“I’m…I’m pregnant,” Junsu said.
He gaped. Then he blinked. Then he squealed.
“Oh my God! I’m going to be a daddy!” he exclaimed with his arms up in the air.
“I take it you’re not angry?” Junsu asked slowly.
“Junsu! Why will I be angry? It’s the best news ever!” he pulled Junsu close to him and kissed him hard on the lips.
“I love you so much Park Junsu, do you know that?”
“Urg greaseball, stop it!” Junsu pretended to shudder but he laughed, “I love you too baby,” Junsu hugged him before letting go.
“Is that the doorbell?” Junsu asked, when they heard chimes.
They got up from bed and went down the stairs to the front door. Junsu opened the door and was greeted by the sight of two men.
He gasped when he recognized one of them.
“Hello! We just moved right next door and we’re your new neighbors. I’m Jung Yunho and this is my husband, Jung Jaejoong-“
He instantly closed the door.
“Yoochun! You’re so rude! Why did you close the door?” Junsu scolded.
“It’s Jaejoong! Oh my God, Jaejoong is real!”
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Comments are appreciated! What do you think? ^.^
Thank you so much for reading!
zkye~