I am proud of myself because I follow through. I am proud of myself because I have not talked to him since I said that I wouldn't. I am proud of myself because I ate some peanut butter and jelly. I am proud of myself because I am honest, and devoted, and only semi skanky, but mostly I am just proud of myself because I have not had contact with him ( Read more... )

sometimes it is 4 am and I realize that I am happy with my life& all of the shitty things don't even matter because I am smoking american spirits in the back of my friends car for no good reason except that we are not ready to sleep. It is getting warmer, the days are getting less rainy& I feel like I can see "the light at the end of the tunnel". I ( Read more... )

I've been having these dreams lately where you are not safe& now I am regreting that letter that I sent. Everything I said was perfect, but it was at a very very bad time. Now I worry all day that you will take care of yourself and that you will not do anything stupid. I still love you so much so so so so so much. I think about when we were back in ( Read more... )

I'm becoming more and more and more free.
Hello bird tattoo.
Goodbye things that were tying me down.

When I miss you I just think about how I am flying now and how I am allowed to miss you, but if I talk to you I will fall down. I need to keep flying. I need to stay free.

I miss my shitty ex boyfriend ( Read more... )

 There was this one day where it was kind of sunny& it made me forget about everything bad that has gone on recently.
I need more of that.

I will make a for real post later.

 Some days I just want to learn everything. I want to see everything. I want to read every book ( Read more... )

I got sick of having a journal that everyone I knew read so I decided to make one and then just add people that I have things in common with that I do not know ( Read more... )