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My birthday is only 2 days away and I dont care. I mean my whole life will be different again and I dont know if I can take it.
I cant talk to Mom about it cause she thinks that she is the only one affected by this so it is pointless to talk to her. All we do is get into fights and fights and fights but I just cant wait cause it is gonna get worse and worse till Loni is in the mental ward........I want to cry and run to my mommmy but I cant cause she went dead today and I dont know if I will ever get her back like she was.
I wish I could beg God to help me and give me strength I need strength.....I have been told by Edward and Bobby that I am one of the strongest people they know but I dont think so.....right now I want to scream and throw my fists down and cry till I cant stop.
Please God Help ME~~~~~~~~~~