tiny apartments with lofts for your bed are cool. homeless guys outside peeing on your car are not cool ( Read more... )

you make me cry. you make my heart slam agains my rib cage, bruising itself and me in the process. to you my words are empty and have no meaning. to me they're the breathe that fills my lungs every morning. choking me with regret....

so im standing in the bathroom leaning over the dirty sink, holding myself up with shaky arms....the door opens and the music spills in. i don't even bother to look up and i hear the door click shut. lock. and now he's leaning over me, hand on my back, mouth close to my ear. i've been looking for you all night he says.his hand on the back of my ( Read more... )

girls parents take her from the smoggy city by the sea and plant her down in a city with too many trees and too many lakes. girl grown in minneasot, barefoot most of the time, drinking coffee (decaf mind you) from the age of 8 and collecting books and animals. girl never thought she could love a place so much but soon realizes she needs to go back ( Read more... )

this uncertainty needs to stop.

i am taking this one day at a time. some days are easy. i walk around downtown LA at 7 am, too tired to notice that my coffee is getting cold and the bottom of my pants are getting wet from the morning sidewalk cleaners ( Read more... )

i dont like the person i've become or the person you make me. its fucking annoying and im sorry for that. the thing is though, nothing is ever the way i want it to be. when do we stop pretending and just take action? do i need to justify my feelings and have an explaination for them? its plain and simple what i think of you and i dont think you get ( Read more... )

LA makes me sad. LA makes me want to rip my eyeballs out. LA makes me cry.

Diesel boy however makes me really really happy.

don't buy plane tickets on impulse. bad things will come of it ( Read more... )

its getting to be that time when i have to start dealing with things that i've been avoiding for a long long time.

so right about now is when i need a friend.

a real friend.

someone who cares and will listen to me and let me cry of i do cause i might.