down the river of golden dreams:

[givemethe_pen]

a lot of the time i wonder if my life is the way it is simply because i never pushed any other options. for four years, high school was defined as preparation for college. so we attended and we performed when we felt like it and we managed to get it all done and graduate, and we were handed a diploma which really should have read: we've lied; your

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[wheretheairgoes]

even though i'm sure we'll discuss this until we're blue in person, as we almost already have, it still gives me chills to see you get so impassioned, let alone about things that i can relate to

[loonybinsbroken]

I feel exactly the same way only you describe it in words way better. what are your thoughts on running away together?

[october_country]

you at umass and me there too and we get jobs and summer travel. the end?

[sorethroatsung]

It's a life of possibilities.
It makes me nervous to think that I ever settle for anything, because the truth is, there are so many options...it's dizzying and it makes me anxious to think that I could have a life somewhere else.
I want to just give up and believe in fate if nothing else than to give purpose to the sometimes haphazard decisions I make, but I think it would be a cop out and a simple distraction to a very complex question.
In essence, I'd love to discuss this with you sometime, preferably somewhere where they serve pancakes.