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I'm not in love 'cause I'm a mess
Your voice sounds the same as it always did during all those summers when we were kids with nothing better to do but stay up all night talking on the phone. Now you talk as a free spirit under government contract, and I know one day you are going to look back and miss this voice the most when you no longer hear my drone. I know if you follow ( Read more... ) -
Things just happened to turn out this way
I don't know how I'm suppose to feel about you, and now this all has come back. I thought I was in a good position, one where I didn't care so much. But I'm starting to feel like I do, too much, because the fact that I haven't talked to you in a while has me down. I know it should not be this way, and I didn't think it was any big deal. It's ( Read more... ) -
Chemistry of a Car Crash
So maybe it was a physical reflection of what I was feeling or going to feel soon after. Calm and good but moving too fast for my own safety, only ending with a sudden aggressive halt, like slamming on brakes, of emotion. And as everything flew forward, I can see it all from the outside and I have no idea what I was thinking or who I was acting ( Read more... ) -
From every coast
I'll walk away but I'll still see your face everyday,
You'll be training to be stronger,
I'll be learning to cope,
throwing myself into books,
college is a type of medicine at times like these.
I'll always feel this when I'm alone and quiet,
you'll simply forget it,
just another crutch that lasted a few years.
I'll find way to distract myself but I won't ( Read more... ) -
Production Playlist
I think I'm going to make a habit of making these. Maybe. If I remember ( Read more... ) -
Crimson and Clover, Over and Over
I never thought there would come a time when I felt like I was walking on cracked glass around my best friends. At least there are a few I can still count on, it's too bad they're so far away. I won't let my new year be spoiled again, not like last time, not like this time. I'm going to throw away all of these bad feelings and start over. Ignore ( Read more... ) -
Amazing still it seems, I'll be twenty-three
I feel like suddenly there is this ungodly pressure crushing my chest and causing my entire inner self to cave in. Slowly, in intervals. Sleeping is my favorite thing to do lately. It is the only time my mind stops, even if it's for just a little while. My to do list and future plans are on heavy rotation in my brain. Makes life hard to focus ( Read more... ) -
I put myself through hell
So I can handle it later. Turn the other cheek and walk away. It was never my strong point, but I've learned a lot since I started school. I think I've become rather stubborn too, but it's all for the best I hope. Maybe I was already like that and didn't notice. I don't know ( Read more... ) -
I know the world's a broken bone
There is something very special about this time, right now. The world has changed. I listened to my favorite songs from 06, they make my heart feel better. And tonight I saw a shooting star, I thought of my friends and how much I miss them. I love you. The world feels like such a lonely place sometimes and it's so hard to find inspiration, but ( Read more... ) -
All those oceanic vistas are so divine
Eating breakfast listening to Death Cab For Cutie from some girl's laptop across the room. Today is just slightly chilly and I think it is an appropriate reflection of how I feel. I feel a little sick. Maybe it's school, maybe it's friends, maybe it's just that time of year. I've never had a short term plan that I could stick to, but now I ( Read more... )