Typing for the Sake of Typing

[givme_novocaine]

A Letter to Myself:

Life's been weird lately.
I haven't been myself.
I haven't been anything.
Yeah, I probably seem normal to you all,
But, I don't know,
I feel different.
I would say I feel empty,
But__________________.
Maybe it's just today,
Or the way things were this week,
(Delayed opening, more sleep...)
But life feels a little different.
I'm not playing guitar with all my [feeling];
I actually got up and ran today.
But that's only because track starts tomorrow.
I used to write about two songs every afternoon,
But I haven't written one in about two weeks.
And when I try to write,
It turns out crappy like this.
As far as I can tell,
I'm getting along with my friends better,
Although I don't know if they'd say the same.

But I feel emptier.
I feel like I lost something and the map to find it.
I don't really like it.
I mean, I don't have much feeling,
So I can't pick a side,
But I just wish I could be how I was when I felt like I was me.

sorry that was such a self-absorbed entry. i didn't realize it until now.