How much can be said through eyes of misery?

[gizmo45]

-Its been a long time since I've posted, but I've had good reason, as you all know. The past 7 months have been hell on my emotions, and mental strength. My mind feels like a dam bulging from water pushing against it, the logs slowly losing strength against the neverending current. At any moment, I feel it could just snap and what I'm holding back

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[anonymous]

It's been 4 years, and I still have the cell phone number written on a little slip of paper that I carry in my purse...just in case. I don't ever want to lose contact...just in case. But it's been over a year, and there's been no word from one side to the other, and I think it's safe to assume that unless some really strange thing happens, there will be no words exchanged, and I will never see him again.

The scenarios still run through my head. The "what if"'s. I don't know if they'll ever go away. But I go to work, I love my current boyfriend, I'm getting on with my life, and I'm pretending like I've gotten over it, because I know I need to.

Eventually you WILL get over it, or you'll live life like I do...pretending for the sake of necessity and sanity.

You know who this is. If you need to talk, you know where to find me.

[drkreflection]

im sorry to hear ur feeling this way. all u need now are just good friends. friends are what help you through the hard times and this is one of those times.

[sunshyne]

*hugs* for you greg. I know it has been so hard on you. It was hard on all of us since we were all so close once upon a time.

I know I dont talk to you much, but I love you to pieces and miss you terribly. You & Lemar should move to MN. =X