"A Life has been shitty lately and this particular thing isnt helping rant"
I dont want to bother with spell checking, reading, or thinking about what i am about to write because im tired of thinking about things so:
Spanish is killing me. Its making me feel stupid and i don't handle not being able to do something very well. I mean, sure, some subjects/classes ive had i dont do all that stellar in but its always been because i don't put forth the full work load. I end up getting a B in the class and go "meh, works for me."
Spanish is different, i am completely lost. Spanish 1 i got an A so i can't retake it. Instead i sit back in my desk in spanish 2 with no clue what is being said. I open the homework, look at the directions, look at the problem, then let out an "oh man" to myself. I don't know what im supposed to do. I ask someone for help with one thing and end up asking again on the next problem because there is a small word change or whatever and i don't know how to deal with it. Discouraging, probably much more than it should be. Im to the point where people giving me help is making it worse (i dont quite know how that works).
Spanish is starting to feel like math has felt these past years. The way math made me feel was horrible...
I feel like shit. Not so much because its school, or requires extra effort or work, but because im lost and i feel completely fucked because i feel like im behind and my learning rate on this stuff feels almost non-existant.