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[glass_thighs]

Everybody I know. Every journal I read. Everybody is in love. Maybe it's because it's spring.. or because they are all young..

But I want to know. It's supposed to be so grand. I just want to feel it.. once.. for a second. But that's something I don't think I'm capable of.

Comments

[kieth]

:( Everyone is capable of feeling loved. You just have to find that person. :) -hugs- I'm sure you'll find someone that makes your heart soar. :)

[glass_thighs]

I'm sure that someday..

[kieth]

We'll bother find it someday. I'm sure of it, it just takes longer for us to find someone worthwhile, but its definitely possible. ^_^

[kittenkissies]

I can relate. It is hard when I don't love myself.

[glass_thighs]

It's like that feeling "How can anybody love me, if I don't love myself?".. yeah, that's what it's like.

[intothepit]

Read mine, I'm not in love, spring is nothing, youth is nothing. It's all silly.

You are as capable as the next person, perhaps you are just lucky and have not yet been exposed to that feeling. The feeling can kill you if you are not careful.

Love is scary, and beautiful, and I'm filled with hatred because of that.

[glass_thighs]

Well at least you arn't all caught up in it. That makes me feel a thousand times better that somebody realized the pains and hardships of love as well as whatever the spoils may be. I don't know what was wrong with me last night.. stupid girly emotions wreaking havoc. And today, again, I don't want to find love right now.. I don't think that I am capable of handeling that with responsibility. Even if someone loved me.. I wouldn't be able to love them back, not at this point in my life. I'm far to selfish and distracted and slightly off the deep end. So I think it's for the better that I don't manifest something like love or actually find it until I am mature enough to experience it. In other words, I have fucked a lot of things up that could have led to love.. I've seen some of my friends "in love".. and they destroy themselves over it.

I don't even know if this makes sense. I'm running on very little sleep.