"Celebrate Pain, foresaken and ashamed"

[glass_vein]

My chest cavity is caving in. I can feel black ink sliding its way into my lungs. Permeating through my diaphram. Lodging itself into my patellas.

Black arthritis.I felt unbelieveable rage about 30 mintues ago. I felt like I was going to explode

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"If you need to puke, just swallow it"

[dead_cat_]

House of Leaves sounds interesting - who's the author

Re: "If you need to puke, just swallow it"

[glass_vein]

Mark Danielwski is the author. It is an amazing, amazing book.

Shit, really? London must be an interesting place in that case, huh? Plus you English murder in interesting ways (generally).

Fuck that's bizzare of your uncle... do you know why he did that? Funny you're mates with him now though.

Yeah... I find that when I am inflicting pain on myself though, thoughts come in way easier than if the pain is inflicted by someone else.

Have a great Xmas Ali!! (It's Xmas here tomorrow), I hope - even though you hate it, that it goes well for you.

Take care

Re: "If you need to puke, just swallow it"

[dead_cat_]

My uncle's a psycho. We have a history of mental health in our family even though no one admits it because it's dishonourable and whatnot.

Xmas! :D have a great one Jess.

"Your suffering will free you"

[pontius_18]

mmm...fucking beautiful. Great choice of music btw. =)

I've pondered torture a few times myself. Me being the victim, and what would go thru my head as i endured the agony. I wonder how much my body could take? Before my demise found me....It's eerie yet so giving. Not being in control. Argh, the images our minds can conjur.

The torture in the movie "Silence of the lambs", was so fucking intense. Buffalo bill keeping his victims hostage in that broken well. Starving them to the brink of death, waiting for their skin to sag from the bone, so he could detach it easily, to make his oh so awaited woman bodysuit. I wondered how i would react in that situation? One would never know, until the shackles of safefy liberate us, and we are held captive by torturous hands.

Anyhow, sorry for the rant, lol, have a good day Jess.

"Correctly political"

[glass_vein]

Heh, cheers. I dig that song :D

Yeah, it is really interesting to think about aye? What your reaction'd be to torture. I think it'd be cool if you were being tortured (even if you HATED the pain), to pretend that you liked it and scare the fuck out of your attacker.

Yeah... being in the well is intense. I find it intruiging though... same with the TCM movies, that house... it's terrifying and yet sexy at the same time :P

Have a great night Diandra.

Re: "Correctly political"

[pontius_18]

Indeed, something we may ponder for many nites. Earlier today, kris and i were playing around, and he put his hands around my neck and told me, "now all i have to do is sqeeze, and you will strangle to death, are you willing to take that risk", and i told him YES! Do it! LOL. and he looked at me like i was insane, so he began to sqeeze, and i put my hands on his and made him squeeze harder, til i began to cough. He freaked out, and took his hands off, and called me a "FREAK"! HAHAHA. I about died laughing. I gave him a good scare. Being strangled would be an intersting experience.

Thank you! Have a grand weekend!

Re: "Correctly political"

[glass_vein]

BAHAHAHAHA omg, that's fucking funny. I would have loved to have seen his face!! HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Strangulation feels odd aye? Your throat feels all weird. It'd be funny to die from autoerotic asphyxiation. Getting off then dying, bahahahahahahahaha.

[icedemon87]

You describe it so well, I know exactly what you mean. I have often thought about torture myself. What it would be like to be in control of someones life. To cut them, and then to lick THEIR blood, feel their hot skin shaking and trembling in fear. It would be a strange thrill, I think. Knowing that you're fucking with someone's whole life, in just a single slice

"Living or dead, I hope to join them too"

[glass_vein]

Wow... what your friends did... that would be amazing to have done to you. If even just to see how you'd react to the situation. That's kind of why I like bondage - you don't know how far your partner will take it.

Mmm yeah... it is a catch 22. When you've "lost the will to live" and nothing matters, you still (unconsciously) stive to keep yourself alive. Unless, of course, you actively try to kill yourself. I mean, if you exist rather than actively live, you unconsciously try to stay alive. I am speaking generally.

Try have a good Xmas and keep creating your stunning art.

Take care

[elohim_meth]

I'm not too into torture. I'm sure if you actually were being tortured you'd want out of it pretty quick.

Watch out for that black ink behind the kneecaps. ;-)

[glass_vein]

Yeah it'd be way different if someone was torturing you for serious. and not as part of foreplay. I think it'd be interesting to see how you'd react to it though.

Haha, have a great Xmas Jill :)

[elohim_meth]

If it's foreplay then the other person knows their limits and they're not really in it to harm you, it's just a little pain for a little fun and then sex.

Real torturing is a totally different thing. My mom had a close friend who went missing for a few days and a few weeks later they found her body. Apparently her ex husband abducted her, chopped off her fingers (each one was lobbed off at each knuckle) they beat her to death then threw her in a river.

I'm sure you wouldn't want that. That's horrible.

[glass_vein]

Mmm yeah, but that depends on the person. I mean, some people don't know when to stop.

True, I wouldn't want that. I meant more like abducted, tortured a bit and let go. I think it'd give you insight into yourself. Gahh, i'm digging myself deeper lol.

And I am sorry that your mum's close friend went through that. That is horrible.

I hope you have a good holiday and Merry Xmas.