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my friend Isa wrote this on her myspace.
& i love it so very much.
I wanted to put it somewhere where I could remember it.
before she takes it down
and I never get to read the words again.
So as school begins and the summer fades,
I start to notice what this summer was really about.
Drugs, boys and friends?
No this summer wasn't about the drugs.
The drugs only served as a purpose to help pass the time.
On those nights we can't remember.
The ones you seceretly despise because you spent the whole night slipping in and out of reality.
Waking up with your head pounding trying to remember the ass you made out of yourself at "that party."
Or maybe trying to remember how you got where you are?
Thinking how much fun you must've had the night before?
Maybe for you this summer was about the drugs but not me.
And what about the boys, was summer about the flings.
About the boy who took 10 shots and finally thinks you're cute?
About handing your number out and waiting by the phone?
This summer you make a pact, "No strings attached?".
What a great plan lust driven girls who want no strings attached.
And as the drugs slipped out of my system so did the hope that I could be like those girls.
Now I'm the bitch who thinks she's better than everyone else.
But I'm not.
I'm just the girl that knows she can do better than some apartment bathroom.
And hopes her friends are too.
This summer wasn't about friends.
Because It's always about friends.
Comprimising, and caring.
Helping eachother up the stairs when you see three different flights.
Seeing the look on her face,
when she gets brought home by the cops.
Maybe when you dyed her blonde hair black.
Or when you lost someone who was too stuck in her ways.
This summer was to me.
To the last summer like it.
To finding yourself, and the boy down the street.
To finally letting your opinion be heard.
This summer was to the nights I can barely remember and the days I'll never forget.
This summer was the beginning of the rest of my life.
so naturally, this got me thinking about my summer.
and all the nights i spent out, away from my house.
and the days i spent roaming around fort worth or grapevine.
with nancy, jacquelyn, jeffrey, matt, dara, matthew craig, lauren, joey, maggie, trevor, ashley, cody, and everybody else.
and i thought of how all those people make my life so much better.
and this summer would have been nothing without them.
i remembered all the new people i met, and all the old friends i reconnected with. and the people i disliked for no reason and finally took time to get to know, only to discover how insanely nice they are.
and my drunken nights with matt and matthew craig, and trying to figure out what happened the next day by looking at a multitude of pictures we don't remember taking.
going to frances' party with maggie and seeing them both for the first time in a long time.
driving to dallas just to go shopping with Lauren, and spending a ridiculous amount of money.
driving to Austin with Matt just so we could go.
seeing Trevor for the first time in months.
taking 400 pictures with Matt and Dara.
staying up late with Nancy and Jacquelyn just being weird. & how we always take forever to figure out something to do.
this summer was perfect.
all my adventures, every picture taken, every smile and laugh, and there were many.
i may not have changed alot, but i've learned to see things differently. i've learned to live.
because really, this is the only life i'll ever get.
and to think that i spent so long wasting it because i was too afraid of what someone would say really upsets me.
i would change nothing about this whole summer.
not a single second.
i really want to make a huge picture post of my favorite times of summer.
so i will. :]
YOU BETTER LOOK & COMMENT.
&& NEW HAIR:
:DDDDD
MORE PICTURES OF MY NEW HAIR BEHIND THE CUT.
BHAHA i'm retarded
NEW HAIR :]]]]]] ignore the sign
it was to make Trevor feel better
because he was in a bad mood
yuhhh
basically
there is a pimpin blonde layer :]
♥♥
& i love it so very much.
I wanted to put it somewhere where I could remember it.
before she takes it down
and I never get to read the words again.
So as school begins and the summer fades,
I start to notice what this summer was really about.
Drugs, boys and friends?
No this summer wasn't about the drugs.
The drugs only served as a purpose to help pass the time.
On those nights we can't remember.
The ones you seceretly despise because you spent the whole night slipping in and out of reality.
Waking up with your head pounding trying to remember the ass you made out of yourself at "that party."
Or maybe trying to remember how you got where you are?
Thinking how much fun you must've had the night before?
Maybe for you this summer was about the drugs but not me.
And what about the boys, was summer about the flings.
About the boy who took 10 shots and finally thinks you're cute?
About handing your number out and waiting by the phone?
This summer you make a pact, "No strings attached?".
What a great plan lust driven girls who want no strings attached.
And as the drugs slipped out of my system so did the hope that I could be like those girls.
Now I'm the bitch who thinks she's better than everyone else.
But I'm not.
I'm just the girl that knows she can do better than some apartment bathroom.
And hopes her friends are too.
This summer wasn't about friends.
Because It's always about friends.
Comprimising, and caring.
Helping eachother up the stairs when you see three different flights.
Seeing the look on her face,
when she gets brought home by the cops.
Maybe when you dyed her blonde hair black.
Or when you lost someone who was too stuck in her ways.
This summer was to me.
To the last summer like it.
To finding yourself, and the boy down the street.
To finally letting your opinion be heard.
This summer was to the nights I can barely remember and the days I'll never forget.
This summer was the beginning of the rest of my life.
so naturally, this got me thinking about my summer.
and all the nights i spent out, away from my house.
and the days i spent roaming around fort worth or grapevine.
with nancy, jacquelyn, jeffrey, matt, dara, matthew craig, lauren, joey, maggie, trevor, ashley, cody, and everybody else.
and i thought of how all those people make my life so much better.
and this summer would have been nothing without them.
i remembered all the new people i met, and all the old friends i reconnected with. and the people i disliked for no reason and finally took time to get to know, only to discover how insanely nice they are.
and my drunken nights with matt and matthew craig, and trying to figure out what happened the next day by looking at a multitude of pictures we don't remember taking.
going to frances' party with maggie and seeing them both for the first time in a long time.
driving to dallas just to go shopping with Lauren, and spending a ridiculous amount of money.
driving to Austin with Matt just so we could go.
seeing Trevor for the first time in months.
taking 400 pictures with Matt and Dara.
staying up late with Nancy and Jacquelyn just being weird. & how we always take forever to figure out something to do.
this summer was perfect.
all my adventures, every picture taken, every smile and laugh, and there were many.
i may not have changed alot, but i've learned to see things differently. i've learned to live.
because really, this is the only life i'll ever get.
and to think that i spent so long wasting it because i was too afraid of what someone would say really upsets me.
i would change nothing about this whole summer.
not a single second.
i really want to make a huge picture post of my favorite times of summer.
so i will. :]
YOU BETTER LOOK & COMMENT.
&& NEW HAIR:
:DDDDD
MORE PICTURES OF MY NEW HAIR BEHIND THE CUT.
BHAHA i'm retarded
NEW HAIR :]]]]]] ignore the sign
it was to make Trevor feel better
because he was in a bad mood
yuhhh
basically
there is a pimpin blonde layer :]
♥♥