I've not posted since my diagnosis. when would i have had the time? really? i don't even have anything to say about it. in looking at my last entry i guess this whole thing has brought me out of my head in the sense that it's forced me to connect with family and loved ones and to look to them for support. but that's part of the problem i don't know ( Read more... )

i feel strange. pensive, like maybe i've just done a time warp of sorts. or woken up from a very odd dream. i want to move forward, it's almost like i've forgotten how. like i slipped down the rabbit-hole and wound up walking on the ceilings of my past...going through the motions of being my former self ( Read more... )

"the martians are just looking for a good space to live..."


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...dreaming 'bout my bundle o' joy ( Read more... )

In the uterus of love, we are all blind cavefish...


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so i don't know why i have been in the most horrible funk all day. i have no interest in ANYTHING today and did not get out of bed until afternoon. i spent over an hour in the shower after that...ugh. why am i so hard on myself all the time? i just feel like i've worked hard all week with nothing to show for it. i'm bored and i'm burnt out, and i ( Read more... )

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i wonder if i could connect online on the roof, i guess i could always go up write and then post. at any rate seattle is lovely and there is a beautiful view from the roof. the visit has been nice...more than i had bargained for with dad and charlie showing up, but mostly nice. i went to pike's place today, visited the original starbucks and ( Read more... )

too tired. will journal tomorrow. must pack and sleep. sleep and pack????

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